After 2

Chapter 34

Michelles POV

Its been a couple weeks now and things are running very smoothly with Alfie. We are happy as can be and everyday we grow closer. Somedays I feel like this isn't going to work and there's this barrier between us but I push through it because I haven't felt this good in a long time. 

We are currently in my home town getting ready for my cousins wedding. 

"Aw Mitchie you look beautiful as ever" my mum says to me as she walks in. I smile gently at her. 

"Whats wrong?" she asks. I let out a sigh.

"I'm hung up on something and I just don't want to be." A flash of concern washes over her face. 

"Aw hun" she leans in and hugs me gently. Ive not seen Alfie since we got here and I have no clue where he would have gone considering he doesn't know anyone. I keep thinking how he would never leave me alone. I often think about him  a lot and I know I shouldn't. He made it so clear that we are beyond over and he wants nothing to do with me and I have to accept that and let him go but apart of me can't. 

"Why am I so strung up on him mum?" I ask barely audible,  "I thought that I could be with Alfie and forget about him but I just can't. Everyday he is on my mind and everyday I wish we were together. I know he is toxic and an awful person but when we were together it was If time had stopped." A single tear falls down my cheek and my mum wipes it away. 

"Baby, as much as I hate to admit this, you guys were beautiful together. The way he looked at you, the way you smiled. You broke out of your shell for the first time with him. I hate him so much for what he did to you. But I hate him even more now because of what he is doing you now. What you guys had was a great love, it was sick and toxic but it was  powerful and hun, you don't come across that kind of love." I think about what she said for a moment and she continues speaking, "what you had was Eldon was sweet, he took care of you and with Alfie, well, he's kind and handsome and every girls dream, but where is he now? He isn't the one for you. Maybe as a friend but not as a lover. Your heart belongs to someone else and your looking for every excuse to deny that."

She's right. I can't keep pretending that I'm happy with Alfie. I can't keep shoving my feelings for James aside. I know what I want, even if he doesn't want the same thing. 

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About 10 minutes before the ceremony, Alfie walks in with swollen lips. "Where have you been?" I ask. I already know that I'm going to leave him after the wedding but I don't want to cause a scene on my cousins special day. 

"Michelle I-" he says but I look behind him and see a familiar face. Ella. 

"Whats she doing here?" I say with hate and anger. She's with James and now she's here. With Alfie?

"Im sorry Michelle" he says with sadness and regret. Oh you have got to be kidding me. 

"You two then?" I say knowing that they were just hooking up. 

"Michelle I'm sorry.  I know you probably think I just cheated on James but-"

"Just leave both of you" I say with so much hurt. "That wasn't cool Alfie, of all things you could do. Don't talk to me ever again." I can see heartbreak all across his face. Good. 

"Hun,  weddings on in five minutes, come take your seat." I let out a big sigh. "Wheres Alfie?" she asks as we make our way to our seats. 

"I ended things" I say and a small sad smile appears on her face, "after he just cheated on me"

"Awh baby" she says as she puts her arms around me. I keep my head down as we take our seats, not really paying any attention to the person next to me. 

I'm so lost in my train of thought and the beautifulness of the ceremony that I didn't even realise it was over. We all stand up and clap as they make their way back down the aisle as Mr. and Mrs. 

"Beautiful ceremony don't you think?" a male voice says from behind me. 

"Yeah" I say as i turn around. My jaw drops and I'm filled with so much emotion. 

"James?"