psychosis | soonhoon

06

A month has gone, we're close to best friends now. I don't want to tell him how I'm feel towards him now, I'm afraid he'll reject me. Everytime I see him smile, I can't help but smile too. My heart skip a beat whenever I hear his laughter. I don't know if I like him or what but my heart just flutters everytime I see him. (I just imagined a heart with wings attached to it fluttering away, what's wrong with me)

..And I don't know why

I switched places with Jooheon in class today cause ..BISH I CAN. We spent the whole lesson passing papers to each other and talking about random stuff because class was boring. It was always boring. I'm so glad I have company now, I'm not alone anymore. We were late to class again because we hung out in the washroom during our break time. Do not think this the wrong way, we just went to the washroom to go take a piss and he suddenly splashed water on me so we had a battle and all. We were 15 minutes late to class with our wet uniforms. Man, Mr. Han was harsh. He dumped our bags outside before we even went in and he came out and said, "You'll have 2 extra hours in school today and rather than just standing here, go clean the toilet since you love it that much" he then went back into the classroom and continued his lesson.

Jihoon is cleaning the sink and I'm cleaning the toilet bowl. Yeah it is awful. The smell in the toilet is just, I can't describe it. Just awful. After we were done, we went back to the class and Mr. Han's lesson hasn't ended yet. So we had to wait outside till he was done. I just noticed, Jihoon looked so upset since our bags were dumped outside of the class, maybe it's because he's just upset that his bag is dirty now? Maybe the toilet stinked a lot? I don't know, I should just ask him. "Hey, you okay?" I broke the silence. He just shooked his head. "Why not?" I didn't get any response.

"Is it because the toilet stinked a lot?" He shooked his head

"Is it because we might have to do some papers again? Or maybe because-"

"No." He said as he looked up at me. His eyes were red. Oh no. Was he crying the whole time and I just didn't realise? What's wrong with you, Kwon Soonyoung. You should have noticed earlier.

"Why're you crying?" Looking at him cry makes me want to cry, too.

"I'm s-sorry" he sobbed as I wrapped my arms around him tightly. He hugged me back and rested his head on my chest. I'm pretty sure he can hear my heart beating like 158mph now. But I don't care. He's crying.

"Why're you sorry?" I ask, trying to hold my tears back

"This all happened because of me" his voice was muffled because he buried his head in my chest

"Noo baby it's okay"

"Baby?" Oh my- what did I just. It just slipped out. WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT JUST SLIPPED OUT, KWON SOONYOUNG YOU IDIOT

"You don't have to be upset, this teacher is super strict, after all" I tried to change the topic.

"I'm the one who started it. That's why I feel.."  He started sobbing without finishing his sentence

"Shh, it's okay. Things happen. I know you were just trying to have fun. I had fun. It was all worth it" I said as he smiled.

"You know, we're in a really awkward position.." he said as I just turned red. Literally. I pulled away and saw him blushing too. Maybe we feel the same towards each other? UGH DON'T EVEN-

"I'm sorry again.." he suddenly said, but he didn't look like he was gonna cry like before

"What, why?" Not again..?

"My tears made your uniform wet.." aw, he's too cute. I didn't even listen to what he said, I was just admiring his beautiful features as he talked. "What if Mr. Han thinks we played with water again and make you-" before he could finish, I pressed my lips against his forehead. He froze, I did too. Kwon Soonyoung, remove your lips. Now. No, I don't want to. WhY AM I DOING THIS. I then pulled away, not know what to say. I just looked away. What did you just do, Kwon Soonyoung. What if he's not gay trash like you? The silence between him and I was so suffocating. Mr. Han then came out of the classroom, thank god.

"Did you guys clean up the toilet?"

"Yes, sir." Jihoon and I said in unison.

"Good. I'll go check if you really did it or not. Remember to stay for 2 extra hours"

"Yes, sir." I said as I walked into class. The atmosphere was somehow different. Stares attacked me and it was hell intense. Why're people staring? The only ones not staring are my friends. "What's going on?" I ask Minghao. "Tell ya in the group chat. Enjoy your extra two hours with jihoon" he said with a smirk as I walked back to my Jooheon's seat. We actually plan to switch places till the end of the year. Mr. Han doesn't really care unless we are talking in class and being noisy poo.

I felt so awkward with Jihoon because of what I did. Cause I'm stupid, that's why. I nudged him and passed him a paper. "Forget what happened just now, okay?"

"Ok c:"

":)"

"[:"

"^-^"

":o"

"^0^"

":p"

";)"

";)))"

":v"

"( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)"

"Wtf that looks like you"

"No I don't look like that"

"Yes you do"

"D:"

"You're still cute though" I passed the paper back to him but I got no response even after 2 minutes, I looked at him, he was blushing like mad.

After awhile, he passed the paper back to me, "I'll hit you with a guitar"

"As long as you're the one that's hitting me, I'm cool"

"eeW THats sO CHEESYY"

";)))"

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"So you guys can do whatever you want, I've got no job for you to do and no papers cause you've done all of them" Mr. Han said as he started marking some other classes books. I looked at Jihoon's direction and I caught him looking at me. I pulled out my phone to play games but, "No cellphones." Mr. Han said as I saw Jihoon pout. He was the cutest pout, ever. He then pulled out a novel from his bag and started reading. While he was doing that, I lied on my desk while facing him, admiring him of course. Soon, I fell asleep.

||HEY GUYS I JUST WATCHED HIT THE STAGE AND KINDA DIED IN THE INSIDE. THEY SLAYED ME MULTIPLE TIMES YOU GOTTA WATCH IT.||