psychosis | soonhoon

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jihoon wakes in complete darkness. there is nothing in sight. not even light. he could see nothing but darkness. it was as if he just got swallowed by a black hole.

jihoon tries screaming, no sound could be heard. he tries kicking and punching the air. nothing. there is nothing he can do. he couldn't feel his limbs. it was as if he had lost all of his senses.

oh no. what do i do now? what is going on? is this the end? am i going to be trapped in here now? he thinks. h

and all of the sudden-

he wakes.

"hyung! oh my god. don't shit around with me like that i'm terrified to be here alone. please don't go too." jihoons head is starting to ache now. he sobs, and realises that he was crying.

"you looked like you were controlled or restricted in your sleep and you started crying- i was so scared."

"sorry." he mumbles as the younger detaches the machine from jihoons head and quickly pulls him into a tight hug. jihoon sighs and pats the youngers back softly. he knew how scared the younger was, he felt bad.

out of the blue, a yawn could be heard behind them.

"why are you guys crying haha, you guys look dumb."

chan turns to see a beloved friend, someone who was like a brother to him. once lying down looking lifeless, now looking well and fine.

"that must've been a good ass sleep machine or something. my back hurts a little though." the man stretches his arms over his head and places a hand on his back, massaging it a little.

"sleep? don't you remember anything? or anything from a dream or something?" chan looks at the other, confused.

"no? i thought this was some sleep simulation or something."

"wonwoo."

"what?"

"don't kid around with us, please. at least tell us what you remember, we won't make fun of you if you did some extra things with mingyu that you didn't get to do in the past."

"wait- what? what extra things? and mingyu? excuse me-"

"it's ok hyung, you don't have to be embarrassed, just tell us everything you remember and how you came back here."

"you two must have been practicing your acting skills while i was asleep huh. impressive, i'd say."

"is this a joke to you?"

"yes. because i have no idea what you guys are even talking about. i literally just woke up from probably the biggest nap ever." wonwoo retorted, placing his a hand on his hip.

chan and jihoon just looked at each other. confused.

-

"-and some like wonwoo, jun, hansol and jeonghan hyung couldn't remember a single thing and thought that they fell into deep sleep. they never recalled ever seeing each other in their sleep or dream of anything related to the others in the room. i tried on almost all of their helmets but stopped after chan, wonwoo, jeonghan hyungs and mingyus. it hurt my head a lot and i just experienced the same thing over and over, darkness."

soonyoung didn't know what to say. he was speechless. he didn't know how he should react, he was just baffled by the information just given to him.

"so.. i was right then. i wasn't crazy. you were real."

"i was, and still am right now. right beside you." jihoon places his hand on soonyoungs that was resting on the floor and squeezes it slightly, making the taller look down at him with a little smile.

"but.. can you still explain my dreams though?"

jihoon frowns, ready to hit soonyoung because the taller has been asking this question for the fifth time already.

"i've already said that i don't even know what you dream about, kwon. stop asking questions i cannot answer."

"do you have a theory at least? about why i dream about you hurting me, the total opposite of how you treat me, why you tell me that everything isn't real."

"soonyoung. i had dreams where you did those things too. i really don't know. it's unexplainable." jihoon says softly, looking down. soonyoung smiles bitterly at himself. he now remembers why jihoon hated this questions especially. they dreamt of hurting each other and jihoon hated every minute of the dream. mentioning it probably made the shorter have some bad flashbacks.

soonyoung stands up, still holding hands with the other.

"lets go, i'm hungry."

jihoon looks up at giggles at the sight of his boyfriend making a face.

"if you're just going to look and not move, i might have to bring you like a princess!" he says in his oh so mighty tone.

jihoon then laughs out pretty hysterically, only managing to choke out a little, "what?"

before the other could even say anything else or even catch his breath, soonyoung picks up the other in his arms almost effortlessly. jihoon was startled, of course.

but still said,

"to the kitchen!"

it felt just like the old fun days.

|some fluff at the end haha.. it is coming to an end soon! i would like to express my thanks here again for reading this.. love you all|