psychosis | soonhoon

rest in peace, kim jonghyun

i already posted this in another book yesterday but i realised that no one would really see it because it's a personal book and i just thought of sharing what i want to say about it is good in a way.

it's hard to believe,
everyone is shocked, including me.

rest in peace, kim jonghyun

you played a big role in the kpop industry,
you are so very appreciated.
i'm not a shawol but i honestly got so devastated, finding out what happened on ig, then on twitter.

i didn't know how to react,
i don't know how to react in these situations.

i respect you,
we respect you.

you made us very happy with your music and positivity,
thank you for that.
i know my thank yous and appreciation isnt much but, you mean a lot to me, and us.

it's hard to say but, i felt my heart ache when i was reading all of the reports and updates

everybody, don't take depression as a joke. some people might self diagnose themselves as of someone with depression, but those who really have them think they are fine. they just think that they're just over thinking or sad or however they are thinking.

if someone close to you comes up to you and tells you about their problems, try listening to them and letting them trust you. don't just tell them it's a phase or whatever, because if it was a phase, that person wouldn't only be telling you but a lot of people which is very rare. people suffering from depression dont like to open up much.

yes, if you would like to open up to me, you can. you can tell me about your problems, i won't judge.

don't keep it to yourself too much, let someone know at least so you wouldn't overthink too much. just anyone you trust, or just an internet friend that you can talk to or just to lean on.

i don't know if these words helped anyone who is reading this, i hope it's comforting at least.

yes, i'm now aware of all this.
to be honest, i didnt think much about all this, about suicidal people, until this happened.

but now, because of one case about one of the most loved people in the kpop industry had passed because of depression, made me contemplate about how others, not just kpop idols, not just south koreans, but also everybody else in this world who are suffering from depression need more attention. and help too.

if you can, try helping yourself too.

death is not an option. in fact, death is never an option. everybody has a will to live. everybody is here for a reason. you are here for a reason.

if you really are suffering, don't hesitate to contact the following:

sometimes, you don't know what other people are going through. so, when someone opens up to you or tells you about what problems they have at the moment, if you don't know how to react or anything, just listen to them. dont make it worse for them, they trust you to not hurt them and to accept them.

writing this and sharing this around only takes 10 minutes or longest, an hour to write. it can make a difference, so why not?

spread positivity. words are powerful, very powerful.

there is so much to say but i will have to end it here, i think you can know more when you read articles or anything you find on the internet. i just wanted people to know this is an issue and you shouldn't take your life. especially before trying to get help, you shouldn't waste your life that way. it's not worth it.

but as for jonghyun.. he already had expressed his feelings in his song lyrics and more but we just didn't realise. he even talked about it to his friends and trusted people, i cant imagine how much pain he was going through. i personally cant relate but im trying to understand depressed people now, it's really not a joke.

please don't send hate to idols, celebrities or just anyone because they're always trying their best. if you really do hate them for whatever reason, talk about it among yourselves. dont threaten them to kill themselves, or send hate comments. because this is what happens.

we should also take care of our idols now. and also ourselves.

again, rest in peace.
you will always be remembered.

you are now one with the sky.
like a star, at night you shine bright.

we love you.