Killian Jones

Part 16

  "What's going on between you and that pirate friend of yours?" father asks. I feel my heart start beating faster and my face heat up. I look at my glass trying to hide my face.

  "W-what do you mean?" I say mentally slapping myself for stuttering. I can tell he was smirking.

  "Well it seems like the two of you like each other. Whether it's love or that you two are just that close, I can see it. I also know that you can't see it, not yet at least. What was his name again?"

  "Killian." I say looking back at father. "This all so ne to me. I don't know how I feel about him. I didn't have trouble with knowing I loved Josh, why is it happening now?"

  "Darling not all love begins the same way. Some love starts out with the couple hating each other, some start like you and Joshua, and some start off not knowing that love is there. There are many ways for love to start and you are experiencing a new way."

  "I don't know if I'm ready to love another man yet."

  "I know it's hard, but if your heart is giving you signs then you should follow them. My heart was only for one woman and that was your mother. I never fell in love with anyone else, but that was because I had a long live with her already. Your heart is giving you a second chance at love, take the chance while you have it."

  "But Josh..."

  "Joshua knows you love him and he will always be in your heart no matter what. Joshua would want you to move on, he wouldn't want to see you still grieving over him. You gave him a son who is with him reminding him that you gave him happiness. Don't stress over something this simple Darling. Follow your heart." he says. I look down at the table. We sat in silence for a few minutes. I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn to see Killian.

  "We have a mission, but we have to leave now." he says. I nod and look at father and hug him.

  "Be safe Darling."

  "I will." I say breaking the hug. I stand up and follow Killian back to the Jolly Roger. Killian start giving orders, I walk back over to the spot on the boxes. I lean back and stare out at the sea, not knowing how tired I was feeling.

  All I see is darkness. I look around trying to find any kind of light source. I heard  voices calling my name through the darkness. I kept spinning around trying to see who keeps calling my name. I turn back around and saw Josh standing there smiling at me. I felt like crying, but I didn't. He held his arms out for me. I started walking towards him.

  "Desi." came Killian's voice. I stopped and looked back to see Killian standing there. I looked back and forth between Josh and Killian.

  "Desi I want you to be happy." says Josh making me turn to look at him. "Choose who you want to be with." I look between the to of them. I shake my head.

  "I-I... I can't choose." I whisper.

  "You have to. You can't be with both of us." says Killian. I get turned around to face Josh.

  "Desi... I want you to know that I will always love you and want what's best for you. I don't want you being hung up on me for the rest of your life. Go. Be with him." says Josh kissing my forehead. He pushes me into Killian's arms, I look up at Killian. He has that smirk of his. I turn and look at Josh, I see him dissipate into the darkness.

  "Desi I want you to know that even though I am a pirate that I love you. I want you to be safe and happy. I love you. I hope you feel the same way." says Killian making me look up at his face. I open my mouth to tell him something, but he disappeared and the scene changed.

  It was still darkness, but I heard a gun shot. I turned around and saw Killian laying on the floor with a bullet hole in his head. I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest, I run over and fall to my knees beside him. I pull him into my arms and hug his body while I cried.

  "No. No. Not you to." I sobbed. "Why? Why does this... happen to me?" I choked out as I ran my hand through his hair. "I can't lose you too." I say.

  "Desiree, I'm sorry. It was for your own good. You can't live the life of a pirate, I won't allow it." came Laurence's voice. I was pulled away from Killian's body and into someone's chest. I look up and see Laurence, he starts leaning in. I push myself out of his arms.

  "No! Stay away from me!"

  "Desi!" I jump awake sitting up in a bed. I feel tears running down my face. I wipe them away and sniffle. "Are you alright? You were crying in your sleep and yelling stay away from me." I wrap my arms around him, he was shocked at first, but wrapped his arms around me.

  "It was just a bad dream." I say.

  "You wanna talk about it?" he asks. I shake my head. Soon I fell asleep in his arms, I felt safe when I was in his arms.

  The next morning I woke up to see that Killian had already left the room. I get out of bed and put on my weapons belt and go to my new found spot that I like to my thinking. I sat with my left left close to me and my left arm propped up on it. I thought about what Laurence had said in my dream.

  Desi, I'm sorry. It was for your own good. You can't live a life of a pirate, I won't allow it. Why would we try so hard to keep me away from this life? Why is he so clingy all of a sudden?

  A/n: Hey guys hope you liked it. What did you think about the dream? Will Desiree admit her feelings to herself or to Killian? Will she find Trevor? I'll see you padawans later. Bye!

        ~Zo