LOVE TRIANGLE / kth. vs. jjk. [SLOW! EDITING]

08 | SACRIFICE

SACRIFICE.

"you like taehyung, don't you?" i asked. "scratch that question, i know you love him." i told her these words right in her bewildered face.

"w-what are you talking about?" she stuttered while talking and chuckled after that. i looked her in the eyes that were clearly saying "how did you know?" i cracked a sad smile. "why? why weren't you saying anything? why didn't you tell me? why... did you support me when you actually like him too?" "seoyeon..." "just tell me the truth, jiyoon," i demanded. for a couple of seconds, there was silence. jiyoon clearly hesitated to admit that i was right, but she couldn't say i was wrong either.

"yes. i like him... but it doesn't matter anymore! why are you even asking now out of all times? you said he told you he liked another girl!" she almost yelled at me and i swear there were tears in her eyes. "taehyung likes another girl, doesn't he!? so it's no use that i like him. why should i even-" "because the girl he was talking about is you!" i shouted at her, finally. i couldn't say it when jungkook was there, but now that he wasn't, i could tell her.

jiyoon didn't utter a word. she just stared at me with a blank face, trying to realize what i just said.

"jiyoon, i know you didn't say anything because you wanted me to be happy and all, but you know, i want you to be happy too." i showed her a smile, even if- no, i'm sure it was a sad smile and she knew that. "he loves you, not me."

"so what? what should i do? go out with him even though i know you're hurting-"

"yes."

i stared into her eyes once again. she was shocked by my answer. she didn't know i'd say that with so much confidence. "just think of yourself once, jiyoon. i never heard you talking about your problems. and why is that? because you never talk about what's bothering you! yoj only listen to other people's problems, but mot yours!" i almost shouted again. "i want you to be happy too. i want you to laugh. i want you to talk with me when you've got problems!"

"seoyeon..." tears eventually rolled down her cheeks and it was the first time i saw her cry. "i'm so sorry i didn't tell you. what was i thinking?" i sighed. "yeah, what were you thinking?" then, i hugged her in comfort, just like jungkook did earlier this day. she cried and cried. it must have been painful for her to hold her feelings in. why was i so ignorant the whole time?

no... more like, why was i so selfish the whole time?

i knew it all along. i knew she was in love the moment i met her. i remember taehyung and her used to be so close. i could tell that she loved him at the first glance, but still, i pretended i didn't know and told her i was in love with him before she could. i wanted taehyung for myself. i'm selfish, i know. jiyoon even started to distance herself from taehyung because of me.