LOVE TRIANGLE / kth. vs. jjk. [SLOW! EDITING]

21; apologies

"Yes, I saw it," Jungkook said with a hint of disappointment showing in his voice as he pushed himself off the wall.

"Jungkook, I-"

"Don't. It's okay," he interrupted me. "Well, actually... it's not but... just... don't talk to me for a while, please." He then wanted to walk past me but I grabbed his wrist before he could. He jerked to a halt but still didn't turn around. I bit my lower lip in guilt as I realized how much it must hurt him inside.

His back still facing me, I whispered an apology. "I'm sorry." He gently freed himself out of my firm grip and muttered something under his breath and then, he just walked off, leaving me standing there in front of the dance practice room.

The feeling of guilt took over me once again and I clenched my fists, suppressed tears rolling down my cheeks. "I'm sorry, Jungkook. I'm sorry...," I mumbled under my breath.

After all, my feelings for you weren't as strong as I thought they would be.

After all, my feelings for you didn't grow as much as I thought they would.

After all, my love for Taehyung didn't die down as you thought they would.

Despite my mind telling me to reject Taehyung and give you a chance, my heart told me otherwise.

And I'm sorry for that, Jungkook. I'm sorry for not giving you a chance.

I'm sorry for breaking your heart.

"Seoyeon? What happened?," a voice interrupted my thoughts, making me wipe my tears in an instant and then turn around.

"Ah, Mrs. Han. Nothing happened. Everything's fine," I told her but she wasn't easily persuaded, though, she noticed that I didn't want to talk about it, so she just opened the door to the room.

"You're not coming in?," she asked, holding the door open for me.

"Ouh, sorry," I apologized and Mrs. Han chuckled.

"Why are you apologizing? It's fine."

I then quickly entered the room since she was holding the door for quite a while now.

"You know that tomorrow is the monthly evaluation?," she asked and I nodded. "Give your best and don't disappoint me, Seoyeon." She winked at me before playing the music.

**

I dropped to the ground, exhausted. Mrs. Han passed me a water bottle and I gladly accepted it. "Thank you," I said before gulping the content.

"So? Did you call your sister?," she then asked and sat down next to me.

"Yeah, I did. The first time I called her, her boyfriend picked up... I told you that already, right?" She nodded and let me continue. "She messaged me back, saying she's sorry for not contacting me for a while. She was busy with work... but... I don't know, I have the feeling there's more to that story than only her work."

Mrs. Han thought to herself for a while, not knowing what it could be too. "Well, if you're curious, just ask her about it, she's your sister after all. Maybe she's in trouble and doesn't want you to know? She might just don't want to worry you since you're already busy being a trainee. Or maybe she told you the truth and she's just stressed because of her work," Mrs. Han guessed. She then stood up after tapping my shoulder. "Well, whatever it is, there'll be a reason for not contacting you and I hope she'll message you more often. I really want to talk with you for a longer time but I have vocal lessons with Jiyoon and have to prepare the lesson."

"No problem," I said. "Thank you for listening." She flashed a smile at me, grabbed her bag and said goodbye to me before she exited the room.

I walked over to my bag and took my phone out. I had a message from Taehyung. I unlocked my phone and clicked on the message.

Taehyung: "Wanna eat lunch together? I'm at the rooftop. You've got a break right now, don't you?"

I smiled to myself as I read the message over and over again.

Funny how one simple message could make my whole day and almost make me forget about the Jungkook-incident.

I quickly shrugged these negative thoughts away and tried to only think about Taehyung. I didn't bring my lunchbox as I though I'd eat in the cafeteria today. But I'm not that hungry anyways, so...

"Yeah, give me 5 minutes," I replied Taehyung and then put my phone away. I took my water bottle and put it in my bag and slung my bag over my shoulder. I walked out of the dance practice room and put my bag in the next room I had lessons in down.

I headed to the rooftop and made my way to the staircase that led to the rooftop. I walked, almost ran, the stairs up out of excitement. I don't even exactly know why but I was excited to spend the break with Taehyung.

I reached the door to the rooftop but came to a stop as soon as I heard an oh so familiar voice.

Jungkook's.

"You don't have to tell me, I know that already... I know, I fucking saw it," Jungkook almost yelled at Taehyung. I stood rooted to the ground, not knowing what to do. "I don't understand you, Taehyung, I seriously don't. Remember when you told me to confess to her and that you'd support me, if we went out together? Remember how you told me to not misunderstand anything going on between the two of you? Remember how you told me that you didn't feel anything toward her? Right, that's what you said. Did you know I confessed to her not long ago? Did you know she actually wanted to give me a chance to make her fall in love with me? Did you know that the day I took her out on a date was the most beautiful moment in my life? And then you just confessed your love to her? Although you told me you didn't have any feelings toward her almost every day?"

"Jungkook, I-," Taehyung started but Jungkook interrupted him.

"I don't want to hear it. How am I supposed to trust you now? ...liar."

Tears filled my eyes as I listened to their conversation. I didn't know it would affect him that much. I didn't even realize the approaching foot steps until the door was opened.

"Seoyeon?"

"J-Jungkook..," was the only thing that came out of my mouth. Say something, Seoyeon. "Jungkook, I'm-" But Jungkook didn't let me speak out. He walked past me for the second time for today and went the stairs down. "I'm sorry..," I whispered.

"Seoyeon," Taehyung called me and I turned my head toward him. I walked to Taehyung who was standing on the rooftop, staring into space. It was only two steps later when I noticed his glistering eyes. "Did you hear all that just now?," he asked a little quiet, almost unable for me to hear.

"Yeah... I did," I confessed. "Don't cry, Taehyung..."

"I'm not," he insisted.

"You are," I said and immediately hugged him. Taehyung buried his head into the curve go my neck as he lightly sobbed.

I'm sorry to you too, Taehyung...