LOVE TRIANGLE / kth. vs. jjk. [SLOW! EDITING]

19; mind & heart, heart & mind

"I broke up with her because I fell in love with you," Taehyung said.

"W-what?"

Taehyung didn't say anything for a while. Having taken a deep breath he began to explain.

"Jiyoon made me realize how much you actually mean to me, I've always thought of you as my little sister I had to take care of, I didn't know I'd grow such affection toward you, there were times when I had this weird feeling seeing you but I just lied to myself, saying that I've gone crazy over and over, until Jiyoon pointed out how much I really care for you and how much you really mean to me."

I clenched my fists and tried to find my voice again as I've seemed to have lost it. I still had to realize what Taehyung just told me until I finally found my voice again to answer.

"Why...why now?!," I asked him and bit my lower lip to prevent the tears, which were welling up in the corner of my eyes, to fall. "Why are you saying that only now, after I told you that I'm slowly falling in love with Jungkook, why?! Did you know I was in love with you for two whole years?! Did you know how much it hurt seeing my crush and my best friend dating?! Did you know how much I had to hold in because you were dating my best friend?! I gave up my love for you so that you and Jiyoon could be happy together and now you're saying you two broke up because of me? Because you fell for me, although you had Jiyoon?! Why are you doing this to me, Taehyung?! Why out of all times, now?! Now when I thought I could forget you, move on and fall in love with Jungkook?! I even told you I'm falling for hi-"

My voice broke off and I was no longer able to prevent my tears from falling, so I just let them roll down my cheeks. I looked to the ground and hung my head low, so that Taehyung wouldn't see me crying although he could've already heard it in my voice. I was taking deep breathes and sobbed as I tried to wipe my tears with my sleeve away.

"If I knew how you'd react, I would've never confessed to you," Taehyung said with a sad voice before pulling me into a hug, he rested his head on my shoulder. "I'm sorry, Seoyeon. Please don't cry. Get mad at me, shout at me, do anything you want to but don't cry. It hurts to see you like this, it hurts more than anything else." He took a deep breath before continuing. „If you're going to reject me because of Jungkook, I will understand, I want you to be happy even if it's not with me."

"Actually, it hurts seeing you crying more than hearing you talk about Taehyung or everything else. I'd still want you to be happy." Jungkook...

Taehyung stroked my head and whispered "I'm sorry." over and over again.

I pushed him lightly by his chest to signalize him that he could let go of me since I've calmed down.

"Can you give me some time to think about all of this?," I asked him and he silently nodded in response. "Okay, then... I'll see you tomorrow."

"See you tomorrow," he said with a faint smile on his face but it wasn't his usual smile that I loved, this one showed a hint of sadness. He turned away from me and walked to the dorm without looking back.

I don't want to see him like that...

**

Two weeks... it has been two weeks since Taehyung confessed to me. I still haven't made my decision.

Mind, heart, heart, mind...they are saying two completely different things. One saying I should give Jungkook a chance, the other saying I should go out with Taehyung.

But in the end, you have to listen to your heart, right?
If I listen to my heart, will that be the right decision?

One thing for sure; someone is going to get hurt and I don't want that to happen.