From Time 2 Time||Lesbian Story

Seventeen

-1 month later
Raq

"Ma, when are we going home?" I was sitting on the edge of the luxurious bed in the hotel, when Bell decided to ask me that.

"I don't know sweetheart." Things have been horrid. The fact that Mya actually did that shit to me hurts—hurts so fucking bad.

"But Ma, I miss Mommy and Kayla." Bell was chewing on Twizzlers.

"We haven't even been gone that long babygirl. You'll see your Mommy really soon—but for now don't worry about stuff like that. Go color hun."

I'm going to drop Bell off at her Grandmothers house and let her mother see her. And once she does I'm taking her ass back with me.

Everything is still hazy in my head, I'm still hurting. I haven't even been to work. But what's funny is that I never ever cheated Mya I was always where I was supposed to be— which was at work.

Going through all that accusing shit had me back in the times when Joslyn was being the same way. I may have done my dirt back then but, times have changed, I have a child now and I've grown. It's crazy how Mya couldn't see that.

Two warm tears touched my cheeks and I wiped them immediately.

I wish I was over this pain, I really do.
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Cita

"Yeah,  I know mom." Kayla spoke between sniffles. "I just want you to come back home."

Kayla was doing fine for the first two weeks but after Jelani didn't come home she started getting anxious. Before Jelani moved out the house, she told Kayla that she was going on a small business trip.

"I miss you and mommy misses you—yes she does! She cries.—Yes!"

Kayla was becoming noticeably upset tears were falling down her face, so I picked her up and pulled the phone from her.

With Kayla crying in my neck I answered the phone, " Hello?"

"You know have to know that this is breaking my heart." Jelani answered.

I wiped my daughters tears and sent her back into her room before continuing our conversation.

"Then come home. No one told you to leave Jelani."

She sighed heavily through the phone. "I'm doing this f—"

"Don't you DARE say you're doing this for us.  This was all you and for you, this is about you and your selfish ass. "

"You think I want to do this Cita!?"

"Jelani don't you raise your fucking voice at me like IM frustrating YOU."

"I'm sorry but this is not what I wante—"

"How about you address what this is. The this you are talking about is emotional and physical abandonment. You left, Jelani —YOU left, me and our beautiful baby girl because you are too much of a coward to deal with the fucking mistake you made. I understand that people fuck up in relationships but leaving is not what helps —it's staying and trying. You left to soothe your conscience Jelani. I want you home and that's always what I wanted, and that's what OUR daughter wants you can't just leave her and expect she's going to be ok with that. And I love you, and so does Kayla we want you HERE but that doesn't mean that I forgive you. And it doesn't mean that I'm cooled off and I trust you. It means I want your ass in this house by tomorrow because I'm not going to watch our daughter cry for you another day just because you're too scared to actually deal with our problems."

And with that I hung up the phone. I may have overreacted but she's hurting Kayla now and that's what's not ok.