Monster

Author Note

Story time/ read until the end please 😢

So guys this whole week was hell. When I got home from school, I would go to my room and sleep wake up around 8:30 to eat dinner and fall back to sleep. Right? Okay. Well apparently that's a fucking crime in my house. Like in hella tired. I tried to look good for the first week of school right? Right. So every morning, I would wake up at 6:40 am. Guys at 6 fucking 40 in the morning to do my hair and makeup and not feel rushed. Alright. Well today not gonna lie I woke up around 2-3 in the afternoon. Like I thought today would be a chill, relaxing day for me right? WRONG. So let me tell you about Friday morning so you under stand why I'm pissed as hell rn. So Friday morning I wake up to the usual shit. Go to school and everything. Now when something happens in my family, I'm always the last person to find out. My sister texted me 20 minutes before I got out of my last class of the day. She goes "I'm picking you up" I was shittttt 👌🏻 might as well. Since I still don't fucking drive, I have my permit, but don't have a car... Anyways! School ended and she was there waiting for me. My thinking she was being a nice sister, wanting to pick me, talk about school and shit. Right? Right. Okay so we went to the drink place, then went to the mall, ate there, shopped a lil bit then went back home. Driving home, she goes "so....they got into it again." I was likeeeeeee????????? "who?" She's goes who do you think? "Your brother and that bitch"...I was rolling my eyes so hard. But what ticked me off the most was that my mom WENT TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF THEIR DUMBASSES...TO THE MOTHER FUCKING HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF THEM! MY MOM SHOULDNT BE INVOLVED IN THERE FUCKING FIGHTS. LIKE DUDE I DONT TELL MY MOM ABOU THE BULLSHIT I GOT THREW.
W T F Bro.

So today. Saturday morning I woke up and asked my mom is she could go and get me a burrito for breakfast. She goes "sure"

She went to get it. Came back and ate the damn thing. Which btw was bomb af. Once I was done with that. He goes "you need to help your mom around here more" I looked at him like nigga....are you serious right now? Really? IM THE ONLY ONE THAT HELPS HER. I was like " I do, I'm always helping her. You don't do anything"...oh what? did you thubk it stopped there? no no no no no no

My dad made me feel like absolute shit tonight.

My mom made dinner and he was helping her out. He was frying the food. I heard shouting coming from the kitchen....I was like oh hell nah. Tf going on?

I walk my ass into the kitchen, he's just throwing things into the sink and yells " NO ONE FUCKING HELPS HERE, I HATE TO FUCKING DO EVERYTHING AROUND HERE. YALL DONT APPRECIATE SHIT." And storms outside.

Once I was done helping out with dinner, I went back to cleaning my room. She called me out for dinner. She left me and my dad alone. I quickly ate and left to my moms room. she goes " dont listen to him, hes had a tough day" like its my fault? no. its not.
she tells me to keep the kitchen and i was like okay....there weren't many dishes and i drag myself to the kitchen.

i heard steps following me. its my dad he goes " we almost went to the hospital this morning again. Help your mom. She needs it. Don't be giving her an attitude. Do what she says"

I kid you not. There were tears in my eyes. I was like "okay" balling my hand into a fist. I turned away and cleaned the kitchen.

Like it's not my fault that my mom went to the hospital, he makes me feel like I put her there. He blames it on me. I'm the only one that listens to her. The ONLY one that listens and do what is asked of me.

My sisters go out and have fun and they don't do what there told. If I ask to go somewhere I have to either clean whatever it is in order to go or I don't go. Like I'm the only one that cleans this damn house.

Once I was done cleaning the kitchen, I walk to my moms room to tell her goodnight and give her a kiss. She tells me thank you for cleaning the kitchen. Walking out of her room my dad askes where's his goodnight kiss. I always give them two a goodnight kiss. I just looked at him and walked my ass to him and gave him a kiss.

I was like good night. He goes "fix that attitude"

I exploded right there I couldn't hold it back. When I get angry, I tend to cry and just yell.

I go

"NO! I WILL NOT FIX MY ATTITUDE IM MAD BECAUSE WHENEVER I WANT TO GO SOMEHWERE ITS LIKE I HAVE TI BE PUNISHED FOR HAVING FUN! I NEVER GET TO GO OUT. ITS NOT MY FAULT MOM WENT TO THE HOSPITAL. DONT BLAME THAT SHIT ON ME. I DOMT EVER TELL MOM "NO" YOU KNOW I DO WHAT IS ASKED OF ME. ITS THE OTHER TWO YOU SHOULD BE YELLING AT NOT ME! DONT TELL ME I DOMT DO ANYTHING AROUND HER BECAUSE I STILL COME FROM SCHOOL TIRED AND STILL HELP MOM OUT WITH THAT SHE NEEDS.!"

I slam the door to my room and lock the door. I'm pissed. Like. I want to choke someone.

I'm also hells worried. Like my mom went to the hospital. And I'm the last person to find out. I could've fucking lost her. Oh but I HAVE TO get yelled at. It's not right.
I hardly ever go anywhere. My parents are old they both 52. I can't have fun with them. My friends live far away and my parents don't want to drive me anywhere nor my sisters so. I stay here in my room. With nothing to do.

He makes me feel like it's my mom went to the hospital, that's what fucked me up the most. I'm here crying my self to sleep. Like

I put so much hard work and effort in this damn house. Does any one notice? No. They don't. All they do is bitch to me about everything I do wrong. And if I talk back I'm grounded. Like what's the point?
It's so stupid. I don't mind helping my mom, she's getting older and I understand she can't do a lot of things but at least everyone could pitch in. But no. They all love my mom. But don't help her. And I don't wanna loose my mom. But sometimes I can't please her either. So it's always a fight.

I just want school to be over with and me go to college because I can't do this shit everyday. Fighting everyday. Crying everyday. Not talking about it everyday. All I do is cry myself to sleep and wait until the next day. Then everyone acts like it never happened.

I need some time to think that's all. I wanted to give you guys this explanation because I won't be updating in a while. Maybe until Wednesday.
Sorry I just need my space. And I don't want to give you guys shitty chapters.

Love you guys always. I'll be back in a little while 😢❤️