We Can't Go Back...

Your Past Part 1

The whole plane ride Alex was trying to talk to me but I kept shutting her out and eventually she got so pissed she stopped trying. When we landed we got our luggage and went back to campus. It was the weekend and Coach gave us until Monday to get recovered from the training camp and everything. We unpacked our things and I laid in bed, just thinking about everything and nothing.

"Are you ever going to talk to me or are you just going to keep shutting me out?" Alex asks.

"I've been running from my past and now its caught up with me." I say.

Alex walks over to my bed and looks at me.

"What do you mean?" She asks.

"My life back in Brazil, it was horrible. I mean I still have good memories here and there but majority of them are bad." I say.

"Y/N you just can't forget the past. Its going to be there no matter how fast you run, you have to let it go. On top of that without that past you wouldn't be the person you are today."

I sit up and look at Alex then look back down at my hands. She's right, I can't run from my past, I have to face it.

I told her the story of the Twins calling and the whole conversation I had with Bia.

"So whose Pedro?" Alex asks.

"He was my best friend and I killed him." I say.

I look up at Alex and I can't ready her. She has too many emotions going on and the main one I see is fear. She's scared, as she should be. I'm a monster.

A/N Don't kill me I know its super short but two things. It took me way to long to update and I try to do it every week. Also there's a method to my madness...