Dusk Manor

Ch21: Locked In

-Shays pov-

It's February snow everywhere and tracks from everyone running around the older kids are practicing for their final test before they graduate and leave school forever and the fledglings are all practicing for there final test to see if they can go home for the summer. Everyone else is just enjoying there time and keeping their grades up. Dee is always with Carter we never see her except in class and I see her most nights in our dorm although the odd time she forgets to come back or I am in the secret library with Tobi which is where I am right now we were reading and cuddle up on the couch a fire was going in the little fire place and it was nice the snow started falling hard around us almost like a blizzard. I put my book down and peeked over to the little window thought to myself "This is so Romantic the snow falling outside blanketing the world and me and Tobi by the fire place cuddled up on a couch"

I felt Tobi laughing I looked up at him as I asked

"I said that our loud didn't I ?"

Still laughing Tobi replied,

"Yes you did and yes this is kinda romantic"

He leaned down and kissed me I twist around so I was straddling him and kissed him back my hands automatically moving up to his head my fingers running through his hair pulling him closer as I deepened the kiss. Tobi broke the kiss letting his lips trail down my neck to collar bone he started sucking at my sweet spot making me moan His name.

"Tobi"

he smirked and came back up to my lips for a second kiss. This time more heated his hands cupping my face and then trailing down my body to my hips pulling me in. I broke the kiss and started trailing soft kisses along his jaw line and up to ear and started sucking on his sweet spot I knew it all to well I sucked Until I heard him groan

"Fuck"

I smiled and went back to kissing his lips telling him I loved him between each one

Pulling away after the last kiss I smiled and climbed off him.

"As much as I am enjoying this I think we should practice some more I really need the practice"

Tobi stood up and replied,

"Yes mam"

We headed outside and ran towards the woods to practice I needed it considering I struggled at the last test a lot this vampire thing is hard lately so Tobi has been trying to help me and even Ray and jake too as for my twin she is to busy with her boyfriend Carter to help out. I hope she practices though so she can leave the school for the summer instead of being stuck here all summer. Anyways we practiced all afternoon I kept messing up I could not do anything right I was frustrated and overwhelmed Tobi could control his hunger no problem he was good at it I couldn't no matter how hard I tried tobi was standing across from me holding a rabbit in his arms the blood the smell of the rabbis blood the sound of it rushing through its veins was to much I cracked for what felt like the 100th time that afternoon and attacked Tobi grabbing the rabbit and biting down on its neck after I was finished I dropped it wiping the blood from my mouth I looked up at Tobi with tears in my eyes he gave me a soft smile.

"Shay you almost had it that time I swear you held it much longer then before you need to really focus"

I glared at Tobi wiping some tears away

"I am focusing I have been focusing all day I can't do it  ..... I just can't"

The tears started spilling down my face and turned and ran back to the dorms

"I think I need a break from practicing"

"Shay wait"

I ignored him and ran back to the dorm I got there and locked myself in room I was frustrated , upset and angry at myself because I could not do it I couldn't control my thirst like Tobi and Dee could even Ray too

I begin to cry even more wonder what was wrong with me why couldn't I control it as good as they can and why do I suck at hunting so much, Why me?

The tears stopped and now I was just frustrated and angry I fought against the anger and just laid there curled up in my bed when Ray knocked.

"Shay I know your in there please let me in let me talk to you please"

I didn't move I sat there I didn't want to talk to anybody not yet anyways.

"Come on Shay please don't make me get Dee you know she will bust this door down and..."

I than heard my sisters voice and then ray replying,

"And smack her upside the head because she is being sad because she is still really struggling a lot with hunting and with controlling her thirst she's upset with herself Tobi said she was crying when she ran back here she locked herself in Dee you need to find away in and talk with her please knock some sense into her"

I heard Dee sigh and reply to Ray,

"She still struggling idk what to say Ray what do I tell her ?"

Ray was quiet and then she spoke

"I think you know what to tell her Dee just listen to your heart"

And then They left her footsteps
Getting quieter and quieter

And then Dee appeared in the window her fav way of leaving and entering our room she sat beside me and wiped my tears away

"Hey we need to talk and not just about all this I have some news of my own to tell you."