Donovan

30. Sadness

      I woke up to the coldness of the breeze coming from the open window. At first I was confused and then I realized that I was still in Donovan's room. We might as well just have the same room. I squinted at the slight light that illuminated the empty room as I reached beside me feeling Donovan was still beside me and asleep. I somehow managed to scoot all the way to the edge of the bed but soon pulled my body towards his so his body hovered over mine as I was cradled by his frame. His arm automatically reached over and pulled me in closer which made me smile as I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep.

   

     "Where are we going?" My voice echoed throughout the forest as Donovan guided me further more into the unknown. He turned back with a smile before looking straight ahead again.

    "You'll love it. We used to do these all the time," he informed me. I arched an eyebrow before I saw what was in front of me. The emptiness of the spot had the sunlight pouring in as a red and white picnic blanket sat there with a black bag right beside it. I glanced at Donovan to the picnic and a smile crept on my lips.

"You could still eat as much as I can," he teased as he dragged my hand towards the blanket. I sat down across from him as he opened the bag to pull out containers filled with fruits, bread, cheese and some sandwiches that were cut in half.

"Hm. Let me guess, you prepared everything this morning?" He smiled at me before he winked, making me roll my eyes playfully at him. So we sat and ate before putting the things back in the bag as we both lied down with my head on his chest and our bodies pressed closely together.

Lub-dub... Lub-dub... Lub-dub...

"I got you something else," Donovan murmured against my forehead before I felt his body stretching. He was reaching over my head and I smiled when I saw a white rose.

"It's beautiful," I whispered just before taking his mouth with mine. His warm lips caressed mine as I felt this flutter inside of my stomach. He makes me happy and that's all I ever needed. If he was to have absolutely nothing, my heart would still ache to be next to him. His hands pressed against my hips before he suddenly sat up.

"Slow down there, tiger. We have all-" A shot sounded throughout the air as it echoed around the trees. As I looked down to my hands, I was suddenly covered in blood that splattered against my white shirt. Oh my god. This was blood.

"Donovan. We have to get out of here-" A scream left me as I watched his body fall towards the ground but I caught his head. Blood trickled down his lips that I have just been kissing and a small bullet wound rested against his forehead.

"Donovan?" I whispered. My hands shook as I reached for him but I couldn't.

"Donovan?" I said louder. His dark brown eyes stared out into the open sky as the sun beamed down on us. His skin was growing pale and his body didn't move at all. I pressed my hands against his chest as I moved closer to feel his heart. My lips shook as I held my hand against his chest but it wasn't beating! Why wasn't it beating?

"Donovan? Wake up," I cried. I shook his body hard and he still didn't move. I just needed him to get up. But he just stayed there, lifeless and cold. That's when I heard footsteps and branches cracking behind me but I didn't budge. My hand reached for his as I touched his left hand where one day, his wedding band would be. I kissed his hand.

"We still have to get marry, baby. Wake up please. Donovan," I sobbed against his chest.

"We're going to have four kids and you're gonna see me walking down the aisle and we are going to live together and love each other. Forever. Always yours, remember? Wake up!"

"Wake up!" I screamed.

"Wake up!"

"Em. Wake up!"

My body shook awake as I opened my eyes to see him hovering above me. Donovan looked tired as his worried lines formed around his forehead and eyes.

"Are you alright?" He asked me as his hands touched my neck lightly. Donovan was here beside me. Before he could speak again, I smashed my lips against his as I threw myself onto his body. I could feel the hard muscles that were out in the open for me to touch as I please for he slept shirtless.

"Em. Wait. What's wrong-"

"Just kiss me. Please," I cried. He looked at me cautiously with sadness behind his eyes as he placed a hand on my cheek. His hands were warm. I placed a hand on his chest and it was beating. It was strong and he was alive and breathing and he was.. here. With me. I tilted my head towards his to feel his forehead resting against mine and that was before I kissed him again, harder. His forehead that had a hole in it in my dream. My arms wrapped around his neck as I pulled him closer to me just before he sat up with me straddled around his lap. All I had to do was placed my lips against his neck and bite him before he ripped the shirt I was wearing in half. Donovan grunted as he stripped us of all our clothing. All our worries were gone and left our mistakes simply as doings that led us to where we were.

He entered me easily as his hands were placed beside me. All I could feel was his large size stretching me as I found myself still straddled on his lap and in control. I moved up and down onto him as his hands pressed down onto my hips, probably bruising them tomorrow but I didn't care. I wanted to feel him inside of me. I wanted to be reminded of where he has been but most importantly, I just needed him.

My eyes were closed and I moaned just after he flipped me on my back and entered me again. He thrusts cautiously, once, twice, again and again sending me into a bliss.

"Em. Look at me," he groaned. My eyes snapped to his and I saw love, lust and worried as I stare into him. My eyes were glassy as I blinked away the tears before reaching for his neck and dragging him down to meet my lips again. His tongue explored my mouth and the taste of mint lingered around him. He picked up his rhythm as he pounded into me repeatedly. Then his lips caresses mine and they're searing hot.

We're moving together. We're made for one another. Then we're lost, found, unmade and made into one again. He falls down onto my sweaty body before he puts himself beside me as he holds me closer to his chest as mine rested against his.

"I'll hold you tonight as I always do every night, alright Em? I know you need that from me," he whispered. I bit my lip as I contained another sob. But of course he heard the smothered sob as he rested his chin against the top of my head, rubbing my arms slightly before we both drifted off to the darkness surrounding us.

Except for the moonlight. It still illuminated the room as it always has and always will.

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   Vote and comment anything, LOVELIES! I really loved this chapter for my own reasons Lmao but I hope you guys liked it too. This chapter wasn't suppose to be like this but I wanted to scare my readers a little and make them feel sad 😂

    My ship name for them would be Demery or Evonon <-------- to be honest, I don't really know how to pronounce that lmao!

What are your ship names for them? ((: