Just A Nerd?

Chapter 18

I didn't get on second of sleep last night. After Adam left I sat in my room contemplating whether or not I should have stopped him from leaving.

I was going to,but if I were to go after him I would have to climb out of my window and I probably would have broken all of my bones.

Of course I felt bad for pushing him off because to be completely honest, I liked the kiss a lot. I only pushed him off because thoughts of him being a player crossed my mind. But once I opened my eyes and saw that huge smile on his face that has never appeared before, I instantly felt bad for saying what had came out of my mouth.

When he walked out of my window I saw the disappointment in his face as he walked in such a slump manner.

Now I'm the one walking like that, tossing back and forth trying to force myself to sleep made me even more tired. For some reason my mind could get off of the situation last night.

Why would he kiss me?

Did he like it?

Did I embarrass myself?

Why was he so upset?

Those were all of the questions that pondered my mind all night but the only answer that came into my mind was 'he just wants sex' and I'm sure that's what he was expecting last night.

My first few classes were just me resting my head on my desk, trying my best to pay attention. But either my mind would be on Adam or my eyes were closed shut ,still think of Adam.

Right now it is lunch time and I'm in the lunch line paying for my food.

I have seen Adam today but every time I look at him his eyes drift somewhere else. He is probably just nervous to speak to me after last night, and to be completely honest I am scared to speak to him too. But it has to happen, that is the only way things can be normal.

I sit down at my table by myself, and begin to eat my sandwich. I look around the cafeteria and see that Adam is sitting the his table with all of the populars, flirting with Jessica?

Jessica is one of the girls that I'm sure he has slept with,but why would he be touching her in that way?

Looking at them in front of me causes a feeling in my chest. It's kind of hard to explain but it's a mix of confusion, hurt and jealousy?

I don't know if the last one is completely true but I felt a little pinch in my chest that hurt.

Without thinking, I quickly get up from my seat and walk over to the table he is seated at.

As I get closer to the table I can hear what there conversation is about. "All you have to do is buy the condoms because last time my mom found them and freaked." Jessica giggled.

Well this was going to be awkward to walk into but I need to speak with him. So I do and I stop right in front of him waiting to get his attention.

After a minute of standing there and seeing that he doesn't see me, I clear my throat loud enough for him to hear. He looks up at me from his conversation, his face glares at me before turning back to Jessica and speaking to her again as if I wasn't there.

No he did not just ignore me. I know he was mad about yesterday but he didn't have to me such a jerk.

I sat down there with my arms folded over my chest as they laugh about whatever they are speaking of. "Adam we need to talk." I interrupt.

He looks at me and his face went from happy to dark and expressionless. "Talk." He demands leaning back in his chair and wraps his arm around Jessica's waist.

"In private." I exclaim.

He rolls his eyes. "I'll be right back." He says to Jessica as he gets up and she nods while biting her lip. Gross.

We exit the cafeteria and stop in the empty hallway. His face still has no expression as he leans against a random locker, impatiently.

"You wanted to talk in 'Private' so talk." He puts a emphasis on the word 'private'.

"Why are you avoiding me?" I ask ready to get this over with.

"I'm not avoiding you, I'm just letting you go back to your old life as a nerd." He shrugs.

That kind of hurt. "Stop with the act, I know It hurt you when I pulled away from you yesterday but I only did that bec-"

He laughs a emotionless laugh. "Don't give me your pity, I only did that because I wanted to get in your pants." He grits looking me up and down

I shivered in disgust, that statement hurt and shocked me. I had my thoughts but I never knew that they would be right. It was a good thing I went with my gut feeling and told him to leave because who knew how hard he would have pushed me to get what he wanted.

I could feel my eyes start to heat up from tears about to arise and I guess Adam could see my hurt.

He pushed himself off of the lockers coming closer to me, planting his hand on my cheek."Don't cry, you should have saw it coming." He said stroking my face before giving me a fake smile and walking away.

I didn't turn around, not wanting to see his infamous smirk he most likely had in his face.

I knew he could be a jerk but not like this, this was a while knew level of jerki-ness and I didn't believe it for a second.
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It's very short, but it's showing how Adam is getting over Elena and it's not in a good way.

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--mymy ;)