Kill Me

Watch me

This situation can't be more fucked up than now....

This can be a good thing, I think. I mean, if I pretend to be his girlfriend, they would trust me easier, right? So, I can take them down a lot easier.
In the back of my head I know that that are just excuses to keep kissing him. I can't do this, not to Dylan.

I pull back and look at him. He only smirks and walks out of his room, leaving me behind.
Oh no, he won't get away with that so easy.
I walk to him and turn him around.
"What the hell was that?!" I spat between my teeth.
"I kissed you." He says, just as if it's nothing.
"Why?"
"Because I like you."
"You don't like me! You hate me! I'm the enemy! You can't, I can't!" I grab the sides of my head.
I let out a frustrated sigh and he chuckles a little.
"What's so funny about this?!"
"You."
"What?!"
"Yeah, you. You're totally freaking out. Besides, I never said that I hated you, and you're not the enemy anymore."
"That doesn't mean that you can just kiss me!"
"Oh, but I can."
"No, you can't."
"Watch me." He pulls me close pushes his lips hungry on mine. For a moment, I melt. No, don't. Keep struggling. Don't let him get into your mind. You're trained for this. I keep repeating that in my mind while I pull him off.
"Don't." I wipe my mouth.
"Oh c'mon, just admit it, you liked it. You practically melted!" He smirks.

He turns around and walks downstairs.
"You know, why don't you come to me when you're ready to admit that you like me to." He says, not turning back to me. And I just look at him.


When I finally get down too, dinner is standing on the table. They are all eating, not noticing me. I walk to the table and take a seat. None of them looks up.
"Well, you're speakable." I say sarcastically.
Still, no one answers.
"Um, Hello? Are there any people here?!" I ask.
I look at Calum for an explanation.
"They're mad because I kissed you." He smirks.
"And that's funny because....?"
"Because.. it's just funny."
I sigh and stand up.
"Where you're going?"
"I'm not hungry anymore."


I walk to my room and lock the door. I sit on my bed, thinking about what to do.
So, we have Dylan who says that he likes me,
we have Calum who likes me too,
and I need to take Calum down without feeling guilty about it!
Calum did make me feel special when he kissed me..... No, it's just because it's forbidden, that's what makes it excited. No feelings. Maybe not... Ugh... How the hell am I supposed to take them down, if I don't even know if I have feelings for one?
I also don't wanna loose Dylan, but this is important to me. It's his own fault that he said it. Maybe Dean kicked him out already. I sigh.
What if...
Maybe if I just....

I stand up and walk to the living room. I don't see him anywhere so I walk to his room. He lays on his bed, with his phone in his hands.
I walk to his bed and grab his phone and lay it next to him. I climb on top of him and push his lips onto mine....