Dead Roses (Gene X Zenix) (Genix) Book 2

Chapter 7

Zenix's POV

Loud music filled my ears, with songs ranging from P!ATD and FOB, to Twenty One Pilots and XAmbassadors. Empty red solo cups on tables, and people just having a good time. Some were drunk some weren't, it was that simple. I was in the living room with some of the last sober people. Said sober people included, Zane, Vylad, Marsh, Reese, and I, and then of course Gene, since he quit drinking altogether. (<3 Gene isn't always a achoholic, *pats Gene's head proudly* Good son.) Normally I would want to drink my past away, but something was stopping me. Maybe the fact of knowing what happened to Gene when he did the same thing... 

I decided to just think through all my problems, trying to work them out in my head. I was avoiding the topic of Balto, because I didn't have to worry about him, right? He was locked up and not my problem. 

So instead of thinking about serious things like that, I focused on the petty stuff. Which convienately consisted of Gene, or to be more specific, Gene not asking me out. Was it stupid to be worked up about this? Yes. But I can't help myself, maybe he doesn't want to be a rebound, or maybe he doesn't want to get hurt again, seeing as last time it ended so drastically. I guess I can't blame him, but it still hurts. 

I'm sure he cares for me... After all he risked everything to save me, but does he still love me? Why can't we go back to those few days, those perfect few days back in high school. Before everything we worked for went to dust.

Before drowning into my thoughts I was actually in a conversation with Zane and Gene, but I had found myself slowly falling into my mind, so it just became a conversation containing Gene and Zane alone.

Gene still had a arm draped behind me on the couch, and I was leaning slightly into it, but not enough for it to be considered 'cuddling'. A warm blush appeared on my face, remembering when we had that sleepover and I ended up in his protective arms, but it slowly turned into a frown when I rememebered how I cut that day.

I haven't cut since, surprisingly. Yes, Balto sometimes would leave small cuts on me on days when he was especially angry, but I haven't done any self harm. Even if I tried, Gene's face the day he found out would appear in my mind and I would immediately feel guilty and stop.

Vylad told me earlier that on the day he met Dante, said blue haired boy had a anxiety attack, which interested me since I never imagined Dante to be the person who had those, but then again, happiness can only last you so long. Nothing's perfect, then again what is 'perfect', everything has flaws, but it's up to opinion to decided if you liked the flaws or not.

Take Gene for example, I think he is perfect, in every way because I love everything about him. But other people might not feel the same because the traits I love could be seen as 'flaws'. So I'm  the end perfection is all opinion.

I left my thoughts to continue solo when I heard my name.

"Zenix?"

I looked to my right to see Gene looking at me with a concerned look on his beautiful face.

"Yea?" I replied, wondering what I had missed in the conversation, "You alright?" He questioned, "Yea, just... Thinking." 

He nodded his head in understanding and turned back to Zane.

I felt a twinge of envy for Zane, since he was getting most of Gene's attention. I scoffed at myself for being jealous at the stupidest thing, especially when Gene's arm was around me, not Zane. I appreciated the warm arm so I snuggled into it slightly.

Gene turned to me with a look of surprise but a warm, happy smile appeared on his face. With a look of adoration in his eyes. I returned the look before leaning my head on his chest and smiled into the fabric dark blue and black hoodie (idk I just made up what he'd wear) I felt Gene tighten his grip around me then again, continued his conversation. This time I was fully content, just enjoying myself.

I was listening to the nightcore version of This is Gospel (Me everyday) when the songs changed aruptly during the chorus. I looked up in confusion, loosing the warmth of Gene's chest (So. Hard. To. Contain. Fangirl. While. Writing. This. *stops breathing since I was holding my breath *sigh* here we go again CALL THE PARAMEDICS) In the corner of my eye I see Gene glance at Aphmau with knowing eyes. Aphmau was surprisingly not drunk, but during the party I noticed she purposely avoided alcohol, I wonder why? (Maybe she was staying sober to help someone with something... ;)) I listen carefully to the new song, trying to figure out what it was. Soon realizing it was Treat You Better by Shawn Mendes (PLAY THE SONG) I was never find of the singer, but I liked the song. (SAME BRUH *sits here listening to nightcore versions of My Chemical Romance and P!ATD songs*) 

(THE DEATH OF A BACHELOR OOO RIDING A WATERFALL THE DEATH OF A BACHELOR DADADA) 

*wait until chorus* *mood music... Trying not to belt of The Death of a Bachelor*

Gene suddenly wrapped arms around my waist so he could stand me up with him. As he does I let out a small squeak in surprise. Once we are fully standing up he turns me around to face him.  "Zenix, I'm sorry if I worried you for not doing this sooner..." I stare up in his beautiful blue eyes, getting slightly lost in them (All the girls get ROSSED in my eyes.... *zooms in* ROSSED in my eyes *zooms im* ROSSED in my eyes) waiting for him to continue, and silently hoping what his next words would be, "Will you go out with me? To start over?" I let a warm smile form in my lips, even though I wanted to pick back up where we ended in highschool, I new that wouldn't happen easily after everything... Plus maybe this time around we can make things better. I nod vigorously and he smiles widely. Since he's a few inches taller then me, I lean up on my toes and plant my lips on his. My arms making their way up to wrapped around his neck. I feel him smile in to kiss and he places him hands on my waist. 

When we pull apart we see the 'Sober Club' smiles widely at us and Aphmau lets out a excited "OTP!!!!" As we all join in laughing Gene and I sit back down, returning to our previous position.

Hopefully this time, we can make things right.

If not, we'll be surrounded by the Dead Roses that carry our past.

Okay yea I know that might've been cheesy, BUT ITS GINNA BE CHEESY CUS THE FEELZZ