Good Riddance

Chapter 4

Standing near the exit door I saw Alex looking at both of us, and then he exited, leaving me with the unsolved dilemma- Why? Even though I loved John I felt something for Alex too. There was some kind a connection between us, something that me and John haven't in common. It was easy to separate from John, but I simply couldn't get on distance with Alex. There was something that always made me love him. Anyway the big news about mine's and John's comeback was again number 1 rumor in our school. Despite that, Erika was displeased with my decision. She said that I was stupid to be with guy like John; she added that she totally agreed with Alex's decision not to care about me anymore. I just couldn't believe that she hated John so much. He was her cousin. I couldn't understand why she hated him so much. It was something more than the things that he is douche, spoilt and snobby.

After the classes Jon told me to come to his flat. I had one more class, so he told me to come straight to his apartment, where he is going to wait for me.

The dilemma in the form of Alex, wrote me a message on my cell during the last, most boring lesson- sociology. It said:

“Wait for me outside the sch. yard.”

I turned around and raised my eyebrow. “What for?” I whispered. “Tell ya later” he told me.

“Excuse me do I interrupt you?”-the sociology teacher said.

“Sorry Mr. Johnson I was just asking him about the primary sociology agencies “- I added realizing that everyone were staring at us.

“Fine, I was just about to tell that, so pay attention missy” he added nervously and continued with his lesson.

I looked down on my desk begging this class to end sooner. I really did not care if the massive mediums were secondary sociology agencies.

After the longest lesson in my life, it finally ringed. I packed my things and exited the door, when Alex grabbed my hand and started running. Me, messy as always, dropped my cell, which scatterd on many pieces. I took them in a hurry, forgetting to construe the battery and the SIM card.

Alex pushed me against the wall, in the narrow hall, on the other side of the school building.

 “Sorry that must hurt” he said, realizing my reaction.

“What do you want?” I asked him looking straight in his eyes. Ginny told me that is the evil, careless look.

“You”-he smiled.

I was confused. I didn't understand a thing. My pale, as chock, face was speaking louder than words.

“I told you I am with John…what the hell? “ I murmured.

“I don't care about that douche. He growled.  I care about you.” He said trying to kiss me but I backed off. “I know you love me too. Stop acting” he added.

“Don't be silly vain man” I laughed cheeky. “I don't”

While I was laughing like a retard, he grabbed my hands and kissed me. Me, the dilemma queen, who couldn't resist his kisses, kissed him back! He licked my upper lip and then put his tongue in my mouth and I let him do that. That is the thing that now, I regret the most!

“John doesn't need to know”-he whispered to my ear. I felt his warm breath on my neck and I felt his soft lips touching my bristled up skin. He licked my down lip and then again put his tongue in my mouth and moaned, probably because he liked it.

That moment I remembered about John. I took my phone, which was certainly turned off.

“Hell” I bawled, while I was trying to collect the pieces.

 “What?” Alex asked looking at me.

“Damn, John, I had to go to his apartment.” –I twitched.

You have 8 missed calls from John

Great, Ugh just great- I thought.

“Have to go now” I said, running through the stairs, calling John, begging him to answer me. But NO! He didn't. I rushed to the modern building where John was living. I started knocking on the door. Nothing! The door didn't opened.

“Open John! John!” I was yelling but there was no sign of him.

Corry called me. He was upset. John has just called him.

“He sounded very strange. I think he was drunk or something. He told me that it is over with him. He said he had no happiness in love. What happened?”

“I was late. Corry nobody is not answering the doorbell” I said with my concurred voice.

“Shit” – Corry said.

John open the damn door, open I was thinking and knocking on the door.

Fortunately the door opened. It was him, barely standing on his feet.

I rushed through the door. The whole apartment smelled on alcohol mixed with John's perfume. I immediately opened all the windows.

I called Corry and told him that everything was fine. I slowly laid John on the sofa and gave him some soda mixed with lemons. He was murmuring something.

“Drink it “I told him.

After a while, he fell asleep. I laid next to him, hugged him, and plunged my nose in his neck thinking what would I do, if something happened to him. I felt so bad, guilty about John's situation. He was waiting for me, and I, being nothing less but a careless bitch, was making out with Alex.

John opened his eyes about an hour later.

“Don't stand”- I said slowly. He looked at me, with his sad eyes and said

“Where were you?”

“With Alex, we were talking and I forgot…I am very sorry John” – a tear fell on my cheek.

“Don't cry babe”-he murmured. John smelled very bad. The mix of alcohol made me vomit. He slowly closed his eyes again.

“ John we will talk tomorrow, I am leaving now” I stood up, ready to leave.

“Fine… I need more sleep” he said and closed his eyes again.

Even though it was careless from me, I couldn't stand it anymore. I hated drinking and John was nothing more than a boozer!

The next day I told John that his drinking problems have mine bellyful!

“You are making problems, I don't want guy that is drinking for every fail”

John put his hands on the top of his head. “I won't drink anymore, I swear”-he said.

“Don't make promises you can't complete”-I told.

“I will never drink again. You know when I say something I mean it! And I mean it now”-he yelled.

I told him that he better meant that, because one more fail and I would be gone, forever.

Later that day, I met Alex. I told him about John, and he just comment what a fool John was. He told me not to think, or talk about him anymore. He hugged me and we went to the park nearby.

I didn't like John, not anymore. I wanted him to stop and heal that drinking problems, I didn't want him to get hurt. When he is going to be better, I will break up with him. I will-I was thinking but that day never came.

 Two months later, day before the school trip, I was still with John, cheating on him with Alex.

I was head over heels for Alex, despite the love to John which was lower and lower every single day. But still there was love.

Welcome to my complicated world!