not yours † lashton ✓

twelve

"I–I don't know what do think now, I'm really confused."Ashton informed his kiwi friend as the two sat at a park bench. The two best friends wanted to soak up in the sun before going back to school the next day.

"Okay, but you are positive that you aren't gay?"Calum ask his small best friend.

"Of course not! I mean, I-I'm not sure though."

"When was the last time you interacted with a girl?"he ask, the kiwi boy already knew the answer since they've been friends for the longest time.

"Since freshmen year. But don't get me started because I'm not a fan."the dirty blonde reply with a cringe on his face.

"Not a fan of what?"the kiwi teen ask.

"Girls."

"Why?"

"Don't get me wrong, they are important because without females, there wouldn't be humans on the earth unless males give birth which is possible, but rare. They are wonderful though, but I don't see myself dating girls."the dirty blonde inform as his best friend nod along, agreeing to the smaller teen.

"How about whenever you are around dudes? Do you want to be with them?"

"Luke is making it complicated for me. One minute he makes me laugh, the other he makes me want to smack the smirk off his face and knock him out because he won't leave me alone."the dirty blonde respond.

"I didn't ask anything about Luke but, do you see yourself with him?"Calum question the hazel eye boy, mentally fangirling that his best friend could possibly see himself with Luke Hemmings.

"I–I, n-no! I don't l-like h-him!"he stutter to his best friend, trying to cover up the truth.

"Ah fuck no! You are fucking lying to me Irwin! I know when you lie, you fucking stutter and you do want to be with Luke!"his best friend happily exclaim.

"Calm down you assface! It's not that big of a deal."

"Yes it is! Congratulations you are gay!"he cheered. The kiwi teen was happy now that his friend finally opening up his sexuality.

"Thanks,"Ashton rolled his eyes at his best friend.

"I kinda knew that you were gay, first off you never talk about banging or dating any females. Plus I fucking overheard you saying that you would bang Johnny Depp last year when I stayed over at your place!"

"Fucking hell, mate!"the smaller teen yell as he slap the other teen on the arm. That was one of the moments he didn't want Calum to bring up, not ever. To Ashton it's embarrassing and no one needs to know about it when they pass by.

It's also not his fault that Johnny Depp is fucking hot, even when he was young. If Ashton had a chance to go back in time, he would fuck young Johnny Depp. But no one needed to know that.

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Ashton still felt weird that he figured out what his sexuality is. Like, he kinda figured out he was gay as well, he found interest in men than women. He can't tell his family that he's gay, his father will hate him but he's not sure about his mother's. He doesn't want to tell them right away, all of this was making Ashton get a headache until he felt a presence next to him.

He jumped when he noticed it was the tall blonde. He hadn't talked to him for a couple days and doesn't want to.

"Hey Ashton."the tall blonde smile at his crush.