Darkness

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So many thoughts are spiralling around in my head,I am brought back to reality with something squeezing my hand....Aimee is awake.Her eyes are trying to focus,she looks lost.

"Sssh my darling,it's okay....you are going to be okay,you're in hospital!"

Aimee's P.O.V.

I wake up in a strange room,I have no clue where I am or why I am there.I feel like I have been hit by a truck.My body aches.I have this strange empty feeling.I look down and Glen is by my bedside,looking like he is in a world of his own,completely lost,he looks so sad.

I squeeze his hand,he looks relieved to see me open my eyes,he leans in gently and kisses me softly,but he is crying.His tears fall on my cheek.He is scaring me now,what is wrong with me I begin to panic...."Glen tell me what has happened?Were we in an accident?"

"No Aim's,you weren't in an accident,you weren't feeling well on our flight home,remember?"

"No!No I don't,I remember getting on the plane but nothing after that."

"You collapsed at the airport,we brought you here.You....You ...were pregnant.It was an ectopic pregnancy...I'm sorry Aim's but there was nothing they could do,we lost our little baby Aimee!"

I can't quite take in what he is saying..I can;t believe it.How could I not know..this can't be true...my lungs are burning and my breath is stuck in my throat..I begin sobbing uncontrollably.

Glen climbs on to my bed,pulling me into his arms,he can't say anything he just try's to comfort me,stroking my hair,gently rocking me.

I pull away,I look in to his eyes,but he looks away from me."What are you not telling me,you are hiding something from me Glen,What?what is it?Tell me?"

"We can talk later sweetheart, you need rest, you've had an awful shock, get some more sleep and we'll talk in the morning.I'll be here,I'm not going anywhere."

I don't say anything,he drapes the covers over me,lays down beside me takes my hand in his and we lay there in total darkness.A few hours go by,I know we both feel the tension,his eyes are closed,but I know his breathing he's not asleep, he's avoiding me ,I can't sleep though,I need to know.

"Glen?"     "Yes" he whispers... "tell me now,I need to know."

He sighs this huge long painful sigh...I can hear the thoughts floating around in his head as he chooses how he will tell me.

"Aimee .....there were some complications and they had to take an ovary and fallopian tube,the other has been damaged....It means we may not be able to have children."

Silent tears fall down my face..."We won't? You mean I won't!!" I turn on my side away from him,pulling my hand out of his.I can not speak.My world comes crashing down around me.I am useless.

It's morning now, but all I can see is darkness.Doctors and nurses come and go,I hear voices,but don't comprehend what they say.

Glen's P.O.V

Five days we have been here,I never left her side, not that she would notice if I did.Aimee is getting home today,she's barely spoken since she discovered what happened,the doctors think it may be grief or shock or a combination of both and maybe when she is home she will start dealing with it better.I try and try but nothing is getting through.Her mum came over but she sent her away,her best friend Sarah came too and she did talk to her for a bit but none of us were getting through.I pack up her things and try to be strong for her,it breaks my heart to see her in so much despair.She looks like the beautiful angel I fell in love with but it's like she doesn't recognise me,she looks straight through me.

We get home,after a long silent journey.I try talking but get no response.When we get inside,she goes in to the living room and I go make some tea and bring it to her.I sit beside her,pulling her in to my arms and she begins sobbing uncontrollably,her body shakes against mine and my heart breaks all over again seeing her in such distress and realising our loss.I feel tears escape me,"ssssh Aim's,we can get through this",I try to sooth her."We can do this together,I love you so much and we will get through this together."

She pulls back and for a second she gazes in to my eyes before sobbing again and burying her head in my chest.I tilt her head up so I can kiss her,she responds so tenderly.I feel those sparks of intense electricity fly through body before she pulls away again.

"I'm sorry",she says.

"Sorry? for what Aim's?"

"Sorry that I am such a failure and can't give you the family you...we want so much."

"Aimee!They didn't say it was impossible...it may be difficult,there are options and even if we can't,you are more than enough for me,You are my world,you and me together is all I want,I don't need anything else!"

"You don't mean that Glen, you are trying to make me feel better and I love you for it but you will resent me in the long run...I know you will..why would you want me after this..I am useless!"

"Aim's I do mean it,you are not useless, you are the most important thing in the world to me..all I need is you....just you!"

Days and weeks go by,things don't get much better.I had to get back to work but we are still around the U.K.I am home as often as I can.I call Aimee several times a day but she is distant.I am at my wits end,I have suggested counselling,taking her away for a while, getting friends to come around.Nothing is helping her.

When I get back home,after another marathon round of interviews,I am excited to see her,hold her in my arms.The house is in darkness.maybe she is gone to bed.I run upstairs, but the bed is empty..the wardrobe doors are open and shes gone,all her stuff is gone!

I fall in to a crumpled heap on the floor,frantically trying to call her but her phone is turned off......

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