A chance meeting with Glen

a million tiny pieces...

I knew things were not good,I thought it was grief and  shock,I thought in time we would be okay. .I drag myself downstairs,I need tea.I put the kettle on and switch on the light beside the cooker,illuminating the kettle.There in front of me is a letter.I open it up and read it hoping that she is just gone off to clear her head....but my heart smashes in to a million tiny pieces....

Glen,

You'll find someone who deserves you and who can give you everything.Please just accept this and try to move on.Don't come after me.

I'm sorry.

Love always,

Aimee. x

I turn the envelope upside down and her engagement ring crashes on the floor.I switch the kettle off,grab a bottle of whiskey,head in to the dark living room and try to drink my pain away.I try and try to call her but her phone is still turned off.

I text her- Aims come on,talk to me,we can sort this out,I need you and love you.Please don't do this.Call me.I need to know you are safe.I love you!! G.xxxx

Nothing.I try her Mum,sister,friends,anyone I can think of, but nobody has seen her.

I keep drinking to numb my pain.

I am woken up to someone shaking the life out of me....I try to focus on their face,but their loud words are killing my head,I feel sick,my head is banging.Its Mark.

"G...Man..what the fuck??We were supposed to be in Manchester an hour ago!What the fuck are ya doin?"

"Shes gone Mark!She's left me!" I feel the tears streaming down my face,I don't care.My world is crumbling down around me and there is nothing I can do but sob my heart out.

"Fuck!G!I'm sorry man,so fucking sorry!"

"Me too mate,me too!" ,I choke back more tears.

Aimee's P.O.V

I've been sitting at home for weeks the same thoughts running around and around in my head.Why would he want to marry me,when I can't give him the family he wants.There is no point dragging it out.I pack up all my stuff and go one day while he is at work.It wasn't the best way of doing it,but I couldn't look him in the eye.I know he would try and talk me round,I'm not strong enough to fight him.I have to do this for him he will be better off without me.He deserves so much more.

I fly back to Dublin and go straight to Sarah's.I can trust her,I know she won't tell anyone where I am.When  I reach her apartment and she opens the door,I can't say anything,I just collapse into her arms in tears.I've lost my baby and now I have walked away from the love of my life.I am completely broken.

We sit in silence for a while and then Sarah try's to reason with me..."You know he's been calling me,texting me.he is out of his mind with worry and I hate lying to him,He's absolutely crushed Aimee.At least tell him you are here and safe."

"No I can't Sarah,I can't hear his voice,He can't know I am here,he'll be on the first flight over, you know he will."

"Aim's let me just text him,I'll tell him you need space and......"

"No!Sarah you can't,I ended it,I gave him the ring back.It.Is.Over!"

"Aim's you're grieving and confused once things settle down, you'll know you need him.He adores you,he's perfect for you,please don't throw that away."

"No...this is for the best,he deserves so much more.He doesn't need me!"

No more is said,we sit up all night watching crappy movies and I eventually fall asleep.

All I can see is Glen sat in front of me,smiling like crazy,gazing down into his arms,he is holding a baby...I wake up in a cold sweat,my heart thumping.How can I be grieving for something I didn't even know I had...It's too much,I grab my coat and leave the apartment,walking the streets of Dublin for hours and hours.This becomes a regular thing,the same nightmare,night after night.I don't sleep much and instead of disturbing Sarah,I just walk around Dublin,always ending up in the same place.St Stephen's Green,on that bench,our bench and I sit there sobbing my heart out.I miss him.I miss him like crazy!