A chance meeting with Glen

Goodbye?

A million thoughts ran through my head,my emotions were all over the place.I was angry,angry that she left with no real explanation.I was afraid,afraid of what she would or wouldn't say to me,how she will react to me.Most of all I was relieved and deliriously happy to see my precious girl again.My Aimee.The girl who lights up my whole world.After weeks of darkness and despair,I can finally see a little light again.That is until she looks up and sees me!

She looks completely worn out,so tired and drained.Sad,so very sad.When she sees me walking towards her,she looks shocked.She's getting up to leave."Please,don't go.Aimee,please.....just give me a few minutes...please" My last few words are accompanied by tears,I can't seem to say anything else to her,I have been going over and over in my head what I would say to her if only I had the chance and instead I let my emotions rule and my tears escape.

She pauses,looking down.I pick up my pace and eventually reach her.I throw my arms around her, longing for her warm embrace,breathing in her scent that I have ached for but she tenses up at my touch.I lean in, gently, to place a kiss on her cheek but she turns her head.My heart aches at her rejection.

I sit down on the bench,where we had once been so incredibly happy and motion for her to sit next to me.She does but still won't look at me.

"Aim's,sweetheart....please talk to me.I have missed you so much!I know you're hurting,I know you are...but come on...you gotta let me in,let me help you.All I want is to love and protect you.You are my world,the air that I breathe and for weeks I feel like I am suffocating because you weren't there...."

She begins to talk,very softly,almost like she's afraid, but she still focuses on the ground.

"Glen....I.....I...I'm sorry for leaving the way I did,I should have stayed and at least told you in person,I owed you that much at least,but nothing has changed.I am not right for you,we are not right together.You are the most wonderful man I have ever met,You are incredibly sweet and kind...too kind.You'll meet someone,who'll make you happy,who deserves you,who can give you everything you need.You deserve only the best and i want only the best for you.I'm not that girl Glen,I wish you nothing but the best"

He tries to fight back, the look of pain in his beautiful blue eyes,shatters my heart,I am doing this to him,but I have to.He tries to speak, I place my finger softly on his lips to stop him.I run my hand through his soft hair,trailing down his cheek and as I feel his tears fall on my finger.I can not take it any longer.I kiss him one last time,capturing the softness of his beautiful lips,he deepens our kiss and sparks fly through my body.It's the first time I actually felt alive in weeks.But I have to do this.

I pull back,look into his beautiful blue eyes-the sparkle has completely gone.He tries to speak  but I place my finger on his lips again shushing him and with my other hand stroking his cheek,I study his delicate features,never wanting to forget his beautiful face.

"Good bye Glen"

I get up,not looking back,picking up my pace until I am eventually sprinting.I practically run the whole way back to Sarah's.My lungs are on fire as I reach her door,my heart feels like it will explode,my stomach churning.I run for the bathroom and begin throwing up violently as all my emotions pour out.And when nothing is left,I collapse on the floor in floods of tears.I hate myself for what I have done....the look of sheer hurt in his eyes.And I did that to him.He gave me nothing but the best and I crushed him.I wanted to crawl into a dark corner and never come out.I am  nothing without him