A chance meeting with Glen

chasing the dream

When I arrived in Boston,I was so nervous but excited at the thought of seeing him again.The last few months have been hell,my life with out him was grey,He made everything seem so bright, he made me  smile like nobody else could.He could make me laugh until I cried but nobody filled my heart with the joy and love like he did.I have been so stupid.I hate what I have put him through.I just hope he can accept my apology and try to forgive me.

I check in to the hotel and go up to the room and unpack,take a shower and freshen up.I guess they will arrive at some point tomorrow.I take a walk to Newbury St. to do some shopping.I find a spectacular red dress.Glen always loved this colour on me.I grab an early dinner and head back to the hotel.I get changed and take a swim,in the hope it may relax me, my nerves are definitely getting the better of me.It doesn't do much,so I go back to the room and chill out for a while,watching t.v to try to take my mind of things and what may happen.I call Sarah.

"Hey,its me.I don't think I can do this,this is crazy,I just can't Sarah"

"You can Aim's,its just nerves,this is what you both want....this is true love and you HAVE to do it!"Sarah reasons with me

I can't.it's ridiculous,this isn't a movie,it's real life!I flew all the way over here chasing a dream,my dream.I don't know what Glen wants!"

She laughs...."How you gonna know if ya never even try?"

"Really?Sarah, you're quoting their songs at me...come on....this isn't funny,I'm coming home "

"Oh Aimee,lighten up,they tell a lot of truths in their songs!you're there now, you went over for a reason and you have to find out...you can do this honey,you are strong and he is the love of your life,now go get him,you'll be fine...love you"

She hangs up before I can come up with more excuses but she's right, I have to do this.I need a drink ,so I head down to the residents bar.It's almost midnight and I order a Vodka tonic and find a quiet corner to sit in and gather my thoughts.I have to figure out what I can say to him.I'm lost in my thoughts when I feel a hand on my shoulder....It's Mark!

"Aimee?Holy shit.....It's you,what the hell are you doing here?"

"Hey Mark,good to see you again...please"I motion for him to sit next to me and luckily he does.I was half expecting him to tell me what a rotten person I am but instead he show's nothing but concern.

"Are you okay?Why are you here?...We're all here Aim's..the whole band!"

"I'm fine Mark,I knew you were here,thats why I came over.I need to try and fix this.the last few months have been a living hell,I don't know what was wrong with me,I think I slipped in to some kind of depression after everything that happened.I know now that it didn't just happen to me,it happened us.I shut him out thinking it was for his own good.I broke his heart and I hate myself for it,but I wasn't really me,I didn't really know what I was doing.And now I have realised the terrible mistake and I came over to beg for his forgiveness.I need to tell him I am sorry .....I need to tell him......I love him with all my heart!That's why I am here Mark,I knew you were here,well I thought you wouldn't be here until tomorrow but........"

He cut me off,smiling at me..

"Fuck!Fucking hell...this is fucking amazing...G has been going out of his fucking mind...He fucking loves you Aimee!He's missed you like crazy and he's been one miserable fucker!"

He pulls me in to a hug and I sigh a huge sigh of relief.

"Thanks Mark,for not hating me,for letting me explain....all I need to do now is try to tell Glen",I smile a little...nerves hitting me again a thought of his rejection

"Hang on a sec!"He heads over to the bar and returns with a bottle of scotch and two glasses."Here,get this down ya neck" He pours two huge shots of whiskey,handing me one ,clinking my glass and says slainte and then pours us another.

I knock back the drinks in one go,it burns my throat,I feel like I am on fire.

"Now Aim's you've had a shot of courage,go cheer up that fucker ,we were out tonight and he left the bar before everyone else,he's up in the room...go...go just go!"

Marks excitement spurs me on and I feel the whiskey starting to loosen me up so I jump up from the table running across the bar

"Aims ya forget something?? "Oh yeah,sorry",I run back kiss him on the cheek and say thanks for everything,starting to leave again.

He howls with laughter...calling me back again.."Aim's...... the fucking room number might help!! I look back at him "hes in room 5355...GOOOOOO" I can still hear his chuckle as I run through the lobby and grab the elevator.I am so excited.I can't wait to see Glen again and tell him how much I love him.

I get to the room,completely breathless..I knock excitedly on the door..no answer..I just keep knocking,if he's been drinking a lot it will take a while to wake him up!I am knocking and knocking and knocking......

Finally the door opens and there he is .I can feel my face light up.My heart rate accelerates,the butterflies flying through my tummy.He's standing there in just his boxer shorts.The look of shock and confusion on his face.

"Who's at the door baby?"A girl questions from within the room. The look of shock turns to horror on Glen's face.

"I'm sorry ,glen I shouldn't have...."

I can't even finish..I take off down the hall,desperate to get away from him.I have made a fool of myself thinking he would want me back,flying over here thinking this would all be okay,that I could undo the damage I caused.He's moved on.

I frantically hit the elevator button,I can here him calling my name,I can't look back.I get in the elevator and break down in to uncontrollable sobbing.I have lost him....