*My P.O.V.*
Its been about two months after I got out of hospital. I know that Jack means well but he hasn't let me go anywhere without him. I get texts every two seconds, he holds my hand so tight that blood gets cut off. I love him, but I was sick and tired of feeling trapped and claustrophobic. So one night it lead to a serious arguement.
"Jack can I talk to you" I asked calmly walking into the living room.
"Yeah sure, what is it sweetie?" He asked extending him arm, hoping I would crawl into his arms. But I thought different and sat in the armchair next to him. His face looked confused, so I knew that I had to get what I had to say quick.
"Jack I feel abit....trapped. You won't let me do anything alone. I'm sorry, and I DO love you but I need some space" I felt terrible, but I knew it has to be said.
"I'm sorry but you got shot in the stomach, I love you and wanted to help you"
"I know that but you won't let me out of your sight. I need some freedom."
"What are you saying?"
"I'm just saying...."
"FINE, I'M SORRY I CARED FOR YOU WHILST YOU WERE RECOVERING. I'M SORRY THAT I WANTED TO KEEP YOU SAFE. AND I'M SORRY THAT I AM SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON." He yells at me. This drove me directly over the edge. This made me sound like someone who hated his very presence. I love him but this had to stop.
"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT I HATED EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER DONE TO ME. I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT I CAN'T EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS. YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME. BUT IF YOUR GOING TO ACT LIKE A STUPID LITTLE CHILD ALL BECAUSE I SAID I WANTED FREEDOM, THEN I'M GOING. AND DON'T TRY AND STOP ME!" And with that I grabbed my coat and walked out. I walked through these cold streets, half expecting Jack to run after me. I glanced down at my watch and realized its late. Ever since the incident, I became cripplingly scared of the dark. I had to find somewhere, and I sure as hell wasn't going back. I kept walking and walking. I didn't know where I was going, but I just kept going. It was getting darker and I began panicing.
Oh God! Someone help! Inside my head was screaming, trying to talk me into going back home. To go back to Jacks protective arms. But I kept walking. I come to a bench and my breathing becomes eratic. I start hyperventilating and panicing. Help! Someone I need help! Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder. It was Dan. He looked at me worriedly, and I jumped into his arms. I just needed someone, anyone. I felt abit safer, but still vunerable in this darkness. It was sufficating me, I couldn't see anything coming, and I clung to Dan, making my grip tighter.
"Want to come to my flat?" He whispered in my ear. Without a second thought, I nodded and clung to Dans arm as we walked thought the darkness. I kept having flashbacks. Lewis with a gun, him threatening to shoot me in front of Jack. Lewis. Suddenly we was at Dans block of flats and was in the brilliant embrace of streetlights. I began to calm as we reach Dans apartment. I sat on his sofa and tried to regulate my breathing. Soon I calm down, and hug Dan.
"Thank you" I whisper.
"It's fine, you looked like you was going to freak out. So why wasn't Jack with you?"
"We had another fight"
"Another one? What was this one about?"
"I'm not allowed to go anywhere, do anything, basically do absolutely anything alone. He has to be with me. I understand that he's worried about me, but all I asked was if I could have some freedom, some sense that I could still be independent. He of course flipped out and accused me of not being grateful of everything he's done. Thats when I left."
"I understand where you're coming from. You just want some independance, thats what anyone would have wanted. But in all fairness, he thought he lost you and wants to make sure he never does again.
"Your right, but I still think that he's being abit unreasonable. All I want to to be able to go to the bloody corner shop without being supervised. Or cook a meal without his eyes watching everything I do." I say and walk over to the other side of the room. I cross my arms, and lean against the wall. I still feel vunerable. I still feel like I am enclosed in darkness, not being able to know what was coming next. In my head I was still in the dark.
"You two just need to chill out, you two can work this out"
"Thats the thing...." I trail off. What are you doing?!
"What's the thing?" He walked over to my side, and placed one arm around my back.
"I don't think he will let this go, I still feel like I have to spend the rest of my life in his protective shadow." I look up to Dan, and look in his eyes. Something happened. A spark? Suddenly our lips connected. His lips were foreign, yet tempting. I feel his hands bring me closer and I bring my hands up and hold the back of his head, pulling him closer.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU LOVE JACK!
I quickly pull away, and stand up. I feel my eyes well up and my heart was racing. What have I done. But deep inside, I already missed his lips. I turn around to face him, he is stood behind me. I look once again into those eyes. It happened again. Our lips were pressed together again, and I pull him in closer. His hands on my hips, and my hands running through his soft brown hair. He pushed me against the wall, putting more intensity behind the kiss. I rest my arms on his shoulders and leads me to his bedroom. Then the door slammed shut.
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DUN DUN DUNNNNN
I'm going to leave it there. haha I am so much happier with this chapter than the previous. Hate me? Team Jack or Team Dan???? Tell me down in the comments. :) <3
(My chapters have been abit everywhere, with whos P.O.V it is. But It was remain in my P.O.V. I hope this isnt going to confuse anyone!)
Thanks for reading :)
~Georgia xxx
Sorry for any spelling or grammatical mistakes!
