Warning: Contains Strong Language, and references to rape. I apologize if this offends anyone.
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Once again, I wake up in that flea bitten motel, with Lewis's arms protectively wrapped around my waist. I had to stay with him...to keep my family alive. I let out a sigh as I stared out if the window, and begin to wonder about Jack. About my baby. About my life at home. But instead, Lewis forced me to marry him, and dragged me into the middle of nowhere. What is my life. I push off his hands and walk into the bathroom. I look in the mirror...but I don't recognise the woman staring back at me. It wasn't me. Why is he doing this? This has been going a week and he wouldn't let me leave. I had to escape, but his eyes were always watching. I sighed and picked up one of the tooth brushes he bought us. I brush my teeth, and pull back my wild hair into a pony tail. I walk out and am greeted with Lewiss' eyes.
"Morning Darling" And his lips crashed into mine. All I could think of was Jack, I hated every moment I was stuck here. I was going insane. When he pulled away, I sighed.
"Morning" I whispered.
"I thought we could go out today" He smiles. This could be my chance to run, to escape his grasp.
"That sounds like a fantastic" I smile.
"Great, get dressed and we'll get going" He smiled and disappeared into the bathroom. I pulled on my clothes, and prayed to god that this would be my day to escape. Lewis emerges, and we walk out. I hadn't felt fresh air on my skin in a week, it was so refreshing. We began walking up the road, but we was going the wrong way.
"Shouldn't we go that way?" I ask, pointing behind us.
"No, No theres too many people, too crowded. I want to go somewhere where its just us" He smiles, and grabs my hand. They were cold and clammy, they were disgusting. But he didn't let go. We had been walking across some fields for hours, and I had no idea where we were.
"Lewis...Where are we?"
"...Home" And he gestured towards this tiny little beat up shack in the middle of no-where. I was falling apart! He pushed me inside, and it was even worse. I spotted mould, and mice. I couldn't stay here.
"Lewis this is disgusting" I remark.
"It's home sweetie, yes it may need some work, but you can do that easily." He says slamming the door. He brings me into an embrace. "How about we christen the bedroom?" He asks with a dirty smirk. Oh hell no!.
"No" I say flat out. He reaches out for his phone and opens up the big red button. The button that could kill my entire family. "What did you leave with Summer? Tell me that and...and I'll do anything you want" I swallowed the lump in my throat.
"I implanted a small vile under her skin, if I press this button. The vile will explode, with a poisionous gas that will kill anyone around her. Now go to the bedroom" He smiled, gestured towards the bedroom. That was just pure evil. How could he do that to a child. But if I don't do what he says, he will kill her, and Jack. I walk to the bedroom and stand awkwardly staring at the bed. It looked like it had never been cleaned and was cover in something black. Lewis re-entered the room, and whilst I just stood there, he removed my clothes. He pushed me onto the bed and forced his lips onto mine. The rest I try and block out from memory.
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Rape. That was what it was. After it was over, I felt dirty and disgusting. I just layed there crying. Whys is he doing this. I couldn't stop shaking. I felt so vunerable. I was in pain. I felt him roll over and begin kissing me neck. I froze. I was petrified.
"It was even better than I imaginged. I have been in love with you for so long"
"You call this love?" I whimper.
"Of course I do" He whispered in my ear. I let out more tears. When was this going to end. I had to get out of here. I got out of the dirty bed and pulled on my clothes. I could feel his eyes watching me. I had to get a hold of his phone. But how? I went through to the kitchen. All we had was dirty water from the lake and no fridge. How is anyone meant to live like this. Lewis came through, only in his jeans. He brought me into a forced embrace, and I reached down gently retrieve his phone from his pocket. I hide it under my shirt as we pull away.
"Erm, I've got to go the the bathroom"
"Okay, Hun. Its second door on your left." He smiles and pointed to this door. I walked in to this so called bathroom. It was a hole in the floor and a mouldy wash basin filled with dirty water. I retrieved the phone and began dialing home.
"Hello?"
"Jack!" I whispered harshly, keeping my eyes firmly on the door.
"OH MY GOD, WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU WITH LEWIS? WHATS GOING ON?" Jack yelled down the phone. Shit I think Lewis heard.
"You've gotta help me! Jack please. Take summer to the doctor, now!" I whisper harshly. I hear a bagning on the door, and I push my self against it. "Find me Jack, Please!" Then Lewis burst through the door. It sent me flying across the room, and Lewis picked up the phone.
"Sorry, wrong numer" And he hung up. I began crying again. "WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?!" He punched me in the face. "TRYING TO LEAVE ME? WELL YOU CAN'T, BECAUSE WE ARE MARRIED YOU STUPID BITCH!" He yelled and threw another punch. I was in agony, as he left the room. I hear a smash from the other room, he broke the phone. I run out and see him standing on the pile of glass.
"This means you have nothing to hold me here, this means you cant kill Summer! " I yell and make a b-line for the door. But it gets shut in my face, Oh shit.
"You think I'm that stupid?" He smiles evilly and pulls out an actual red button. FUCK!" I freeze on the spot. "Now are you going to try and call for help again?" I shake my head obidently.
"Are you going to stay here with me?" I nod my head
"Then kiss me" I reluctanly walk over and kiss him. My nightmare felt like it was never going to end.
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