His hand slipped out of my grasp. I looked up at his heartbroken face, as tears welled up in his emerald eyes. I could see what I had done to him, the moment his heart broke into directly into two, the loving memories of us two being pushed back to the furthest corners of his mind, then being replaced with hatred and betrayal. Without saying a word, he got up and walked across the room. His hands were clenched into fists, they were closed so tight that they turned white. The silence was deadly. I hid my face in my hands, trying to hide from reality. Soon, I realized that soon I had to look up, and I found Jack stood by the open fire. He was looking at our wedding picture, I could see the tears in his eyes. Slowly I stood up and walked over to him. I crossed my arms, trying to protect myself. From what? I don't know.
"Jack, please say something?" I whisper. I see him flinch at my words, and even I could feel the hatred he felt towards me. He turned slightly, and began undoing the the frame. What was he doing? Slowly he peeled the photo out of the frame. He looked at it, and turned towards me.
"I loved you, and I thought you loved me too" He whispered
"I do Jack"
"Don't lie to me" He whispered with a sturn tone. His tears kept falling, but his face was cemented with a sad smile. His lips were wobbling, and his hands were still gripping our photo.
"Jack, I'm not lying to you. I love you"
"THATS WHY YOU SLEPT WITH ANOTHER MAN!" Silence.His face fell into an angry yet sad expression. I tightened my grip around my stomach, and shooting pains travelled to my bullet scar. "I remember when Mel kissed me,...You didn't want to talk to me, or be with me. How is it any different for you?"
"I know Jack and I'm sorry..." I started
"STOP SAYING YOUR SORRY! We haven't even been married a year, and so many problems have been caused. BY YOU! YOU WERE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AND I THOUGHT...I thought...I don't know anymore!"
"Jack..."
"NO!" He yelled whilst tears streamed down his face. I couldn't bear to look at him. Jack looked at the picture for the last time. "This is the last time we was, we and truely happy. But now...NOW I CAN'T STAND THE SIGHT OF YOU!" He yelled and trew the picture into the fire. I watched it slowly burn. It was like watching our marriage burn into ash. The corners curled up, then I saw our faces being burnt. Tears began streaming down my face.
"Why Jack? Why?" I whispered.
"WHY DID YOU SLEEP WITH SOMEBODY ELSE!"
"It was a mistake" I whispered.
"SO THAT MAKES IT BETTER DOES IT?"
"No of course it doesn't."
"I thought I meant something to you"
"You mean everything to me, and if I didn't love you do you think I would be feeling like this? Dirty, Guilty, Ashamed, Disgusted? Jack, I love you and I would never purposefully hurt you" But I got no response. Jack just grabbed him phone and wallet, and walked out the door. I ran after him into the street. I grabbed a hold of Jacks arm.
"Jack please, please don't go? Where will you go? Where will you stay?"
"Like you care. Just leave me alone. I don't ring me, don't call me, I don't want anything to do you" His arm slipped out of my grasp. And he walked off. His body was getting further and further away.
"PLEASE JACK! PLEASE!" I keep on yelling. But he doesn't turn to take one last glance, and suddenly he's gone. I sink to my knees and and let out more and more tears. I felt like my heart had been ripped out and been destroyed right before me.
Has my marriage been torn to shreds? Have I lost my one true friend? ALL BECAUSE OF ONE STUPID, SPUR OF THE MOMENT THING?! WHY HAS THIS HAPPENED?
I slowly stood up and walked back into the house. I kneeled before the fire, while tears still streamed down my face down my face. I watched the dancing flames, the same flames that destroyed my last happy memory.
*RRRING RRRING* *RRRING RRRING*
My phone began to ring, and I stumbled to answer it.
"Jack?!"
"Erm No..." I had never even looked at the caller ID. It was Dan.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?"
"I need to talk to you"
"I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO YOU! YOU HAVE RUINED MY HUSBAND, MY MARRIAGE AND MY LIFE!" And I hung up the phone and threw it across the room. I covered my face with my hands and broke down. I cried and cried, whilst letting out some screams. I bring my knees to my chest and rock back and forth. I hated myself, I hated everything I had done. I stand up and run to the kitchen and grab a bottle of vodka. I sit on the side and slowly undo the cap. I set the bottle down on the side and I stared at the clear liquid the bottle contained. I pickup the landline that was next to me and tried to call Jack. I slowly pressed each number and called. It just kept ringing and ringing. So when he didn't answer I cried more and more. I threw the phone and wiped the tears from my face, I continued to stare at the vodka bottle. I picked it up drink it. The liquid passed my lips, and the alcohol burnt the back of my throat. It almost made me remember that I could still feel something. I kept drinking, and drinking and drinking. Suddenly the bottle was empty, I became so angry and upset, I threw the bottle across the room sending shards flying everywhere. I was totally alone. I felt slightly tipsy and stumbled throught to the living room. I collapsed on the sofa, layed down and brought my knees up and closed my eyes. I could still see Jacks face, his heart breaking, and him leaving. I was alone.
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I didn't think I would be able to upload a new chapter today, so SURPRISE! :) I know I cannot upload on thursday or friday. But to make up for it, I'll upload twice on saturday :) I hope your enjoying the story :D
~Georgia xxx
