I sat staring into space, as we waited for the doctor to arrive. After my dreams kept getting worse and more vivid, I had to go to a physcologist. They were haunting my sleep, and all I could think about durnig the day was the dreams. They made me think I wasn't good enough, they made me believe that Jack didn't love me. Suddenly Jack appeared handing me a cup of tea. I take a sip, and just try drown out all the voices. Jack pulls me into a hug, and I just lean back and rest my head on his chest. I listen to the soothing sound of his heartbeat.
"Jack...What if they say I'm not a fit mother?" I ask worriedly. All the nights after the doctors visit, I kept dreaming that they was going to take my baby away. I couldn't let that happen.
"Its not effecting how you take care of her, plus she will go to me. I am not going to let them take her away from you. I promise." He whispered in my ear. I began crying at the vision of seeing my daughter beening taken further and further away from me. No! They can't take her! I began shaking, and panicking. Jack pulled the tea out of my hand and squatted down beside me.
"Honey, calm down! Stop panicking! They aren't going to take her" He tried to calm me. I couldn't stop shaking. I began regulating my breathing and I gripped the sofa. I breathed in slowly and tried to relax my body. I leaned back, and closed my eyes. My baby, she needs her mother. I hear a knock at the door, and I tense up. "I'm going to answer the door, you need to relax." He kissed me on the forehead, and left the room. I took a deep breath, and tried to relax. This woman in a black suit comes into the room, she sits down beside me, and smiles. Please tell me that, thats good news!.
"Hello, Mrs. Harries. How are you feeling today? How was your dreams last night?" She asked with a calming tone.
"I'm ok, and...and I can't remember my dream" I lie. My dream was summer as an adult, telling me she hated me and wished she was never born.
"Okay, thats good to hear. I would like to ask you some questions" She smiles.
"Okay"
"Number one, how old is summer?"
"She is four months and three weeks"
"Number two, how long have you and Mr. Harries been married?"
"Two years."
"Number three, ever since you came home, has your dreams affected how you look after your daughter?"
"No! Of course not!"
"Number four, Have you had any physical effects, due to your expriences?"
"Erm...Yeah, kinda" I hesitate.
"Please, expand"
"I will have sudden onsets of shaking, and flashbacks."
"What will happen if Summer needs you when one of these...episodes happens?"
"Jack will look after her, these episodes only last a few minutes"
"But who will look after Summer whilst you have an episode, and your husband isn't around?"
"I..um..I will.."I trail off, I didn't know. It has never happened.
"Listen Mrs. Harries I am doing my best to make sure Summer is in the best state of care"
"SHE IS!" I panic.
"Excuse me whilst I take to your Husband" She smiles and exits the room. I begin panicking again, she's going to take her away, from me. First Lewis takes her away, and now she is going to! No! Calm down, if she sees you like this , she WILL take her. I grip the sofa and take a deep breath, I calm down and breath normally. As I calm down, she re-enters the room, with a crying Jack behind her. Oh No!
