I awaken to a sliver of light shining through the curtains. I look around, this isn't Jacks room. Where am I? My eyes adjust to my surroundings and then I realize where I was. I was still at Dans apartment. Oh God. I look down and stare at the unfamilar tanned arms placed carefully over my waist. I sit bolt up right and hold the duvet over my chest. My breathing increases when I realize I'm naked, and so is he. Dan wakes up and rests on his one arm. I stand up and pull on my dress, and run to the bathroom. My breathing increases rapidly, as I brace myself on the sink.
WHAT HAVE I DONE? YOUR MARRIED! YOU'VE RUINED THE BEST RELATIONSHIP YOU HAVE EVER HAD! OH GOD, I HAVE TO TELL HIM!
I cross my arms around my body, and sit in the corner of the bathroom. My breathing hasn't gotten any better, and I rock back and forth, crying. I hear banging on the door as Dan begs me to open the door Everything is a blur, mixed with an emotional cocktail swirling inside of me. The feeling came back, the feeling of darkness, the feeling of lonliness. What have I done? Eventually Dan breaks through the lock and finds me. He comes over to comfort me, but after last night, I cannot stand him touching me. I push him away and run through to the living room. Dan comes rushing through, and I try and push him away.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" I yell at him. My tears are falling down my face like a waterfall. I keep my arms wrapped around my stomach, trying to protect myself. I feel the bullet scar, and all the flash backs came back. Lewis. The thought of him made me more angry and upset. Everything was flying thorugh my head, as I was snapped back into reality as Dan took my hand. I pushed him away once more.
"I SAID DON'T TOUCH ME!"
"What are you talking about?"
"WHAT DO YOU THINK I'M TALKING ABOUT? I'VE JUST CHEATED ON MY HUSBAND!" Then there was silence. I stared at him as my eyes welled up with tears. I was shaking as I collapsed into a ball on the floor. I hated myself, and I hated what I've done to Jack. Then the image of my husband popped into my head. Our wedding day, the shooting, and everything since. And I've just cheated on him. I get up and run out, and kept on running. Deep down, I thought I could out run my problems. Run far away. I just wanted to run. I reached a park, and sat down on a near by bench. It was ice cold, yet I couldn't feel it. What had I done? I just cheated on the man I love. I loved Jack, how could I do this to him. I felt dirty and ashamed. I closed my eyes and rested my head in my hands. I took a few deep breaths.
I hope your happy! You've ruined two lifes. You were happy with Jack, so you sleep with someone else. Your a genius! You still have to talk to him.
More and more tears begin to flow. I couldn't hold them back, and my hands are soaked. The cold air is sinking deeper into my skin. I could feel the goosebumps up and down my skin. I had to go home soon, I had to face the music sooner or later. But everytime I bring myself to stand up, I can just imagine Jacks heart broken face, the look of betrayal, the look of pure hatred. Everytime, I sat back down. I wasted hours. But as 4 o'clock rolled around, I finally gathered up the courage and began to walk home. My skin was ice cold, and I couldn't feel my fingers or anything. The only thing I could feel was nervousness and emotions bubbling to the surface. As soon as the house came into the view, I froze in my spot. I wiped away any excess tears that fell down my face, I kept on walking, and with each step my heart sunk lower and lower. I slowly walked up the house, and opened the door. I stepped inside and was incased in warmth. I stepped out of my shoes and took off my coat. I felt tears welling up, and I just couldn't fight it. Suddenly Jack appears from around the corner, and we just stared at each other. Without a word we came into an embrace. I tried to remember the shape of his body, his scent, just everything about him. More and more tears began flowing , and began soaking the shoulder of his shirt. When we pull away, he looked deep into my eyes. Gently with his thumb he wiped away my tears, I stared deep into his emerald eyes, and kept thinking this would be the last time I would see them.
"I need to talk to you" I manage to whisper, but it was barely audible. I droop my head in shame.
"What about darling?" He asked, and he used his finger to bring my eye sight to his, I wanted to stare directly into eyes forever, however I didn't want to see the heartbreak that reflects in his eyes.
"But first, there is something I need to do" I whisper, and lean in. Our lips connect, maybe for the last time, they moved in sync and they were soft to a touch. I never wanted this to end, because I knew the minute we came apart I would have to tell him. Eventually, we had to pull away, and the moment I was dreading showed.
"Come with me" I tell him, and take ahold of his hand. I led him through to the living room, I sat him down on the sofa, and sat down next to him. I held his hand tighter and traced the creases in his hand. I kept my head down, not wanted to see his face when I told him.
"What is it?" He asked me
"Jack, t-there's something I need to tell you"
"Go on" He whispered with smile.
"You know last night after the arguement. I ran to the park, and when it was getting dark, I started panicing. Then Dan....Dan hugged me and offered to take me back to his flat. Then-then we began talking and then....." I trailed off. I look up at his face, and its just what I feared, he looked confused and scared. "I-I-I slept with him" I saw his face drop. His eyes fill up with tears and his hand being pulled out of mine.
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What would you do? Would you forgive and forget, or make them pay? I liked writing this chapter, and I hope you like reading it. I won't be updating on wednesday or thursday, but I will try and make it regular ( and maybe daily ) :)
~Georgia
I hope your enjoying the story :) xxx
