A Book of Mallycat504 (Why Didn't I Think of This Sooner!?!?)

I'm Probably Out of My Mind, But Hey! What Else is New?

Recently sleeping has been a struggle for me

For every time I close my eyes, I dream I can be free

Only reality has come crashing down, as the world I know is burned

And through the fires all I see is her, I should have been forewarned

Now, as I walk through the ashes of a former time

I find myself repeating the same old line

The one that has kept my fears away

The one that will come to save

Only now my logic has failed, and darkness has set in

She welcomes me with open arms, not caring of my sins

I've failed all those I ever cared for. All those who were so brave and true

But now I'm probably out of my mind, but hey! What else is new?

Okay so I suppose we started out with a bit of poetry today. And I'm sorry for that. I know that it sucks.

I also know that I suck, and probably the single worst mistake of the universe

That and mullets

Only in that poem, that first line is true. I've been having trouble sleeping lately.

My mind has rested on a single handedly most fearful topic I know of.

My future

I know, gasp in horror. I bet most of you think I live under a bridge, but your wrong.

I live under a rock

Now I wanna be able to continue my life, and continue writing, and damn it I wanna be a fucking author!

Only I suck at writing, so I know I'll never amount to anything in my life.

Only sometimes I just wanna see the world

Live my life as a normal person might

But I doubt that'll ever happen.

Other times late at night, I wonder how different I'd have been, if I never made a single friend.

No offense to my friends out there, on this topic, but how would I act if I didn't have friends...

I'd probably have gone mad, listening to voices in my head

Heh, that's kinda dark.

So yeah, i haven't slept very well, because whenever I close my eyes, and darkness surrounds me, I think I might become a famous author.

But then, when I open my eyes once more, it's still dark, and I realize that dream will never come true

And I'm alone, with only the shadows as my friends

God, I'm sooooo sorry for wasting like three minutes of your life whining about mine.

It's not like I have a great life, or mental track, but I know there are those who have it waaaay worse.

Final thing, i want to say sorry one more time. For mainly wasting your time. But then again, maybe some of mine.

Also that picture at the top is something my and Emma ( crazycatladymeow )drew. We should quit out day jobs and become artists! (I'm the one w/ brown hair and brown eyes, she's da one w/ blond hair and blue eyes)