LUCAS P.O.V.
I lay in bed watching Marie, she looked bothered by something. I held her tight against my body. I wanted nothing more than to make her mine, forever. Give her anything she would ever want. But is that what she wanted?
I sighed and rested my head against the hard wooden headboard. I had already bought a ring. What if I asked her and she turned me down? That would be the end of us.
I looked down, Marie had fallen asleep. I carefully got up and walked over to the dresser, the box was stuffed in the back. Maybe I can return the ring and get her something else.
"What are you doing?"
I slammed the drawer shut and spun around, Marie was sitting up on the bed watching me.
"Nothing, go back to sleep."
Marie got up off the bed and stretched.
"No." she said, yawning. "Come get a shower with me." She smiled.
I followed her into the bathroom. I stripped down before Marie could get her shirt off, I want her so bad right now.
She turned around so I could unhook her bra, I gasped. "Get dressed!"
Marie spun around, "what?" She asked confused.
I grabbed her arm and turned it so she could see.
"Oh my god! What is that!"
"I think it's welts. Get dressed." I pulled my jeans back on while Marie slid her shirt on.
Once we were both dressed we got into the car so I could take her to the emergency room.
It was hours before the doctor came in, when he asked to see Marie's arm the welts had gotten worse, they looked like blisters now.
While the nurse asked her about her medical history the doctor examined her arm.
"How long have you been on birth control sweetie?" The doctor asked.
"3 years."
"And has the implant need the method the whole 3 years?"
Marie nodded.
"I think you may be having an allergic reaction. Are you comfortable with trying a different method? This has to come out."
Marie's eyes shot to mine. I clenched my jaw and looked away.
"No." she whispered.
"If we leave this in.."
"Take it out." Marie said.
"Do you want to try the pill?" The doctor asked her.
I looked at Marie, she had tears in her eyes. Why was she going to cry?
"No. no birth control."
The doctor nodded at her and he and the nurse left to get the things they needed to cut the bar out of Marie's arm.
Marie looked down, I moved to sit next to her on the hospital bed. "What are you doing?" I whispered.
Marie started sobbing, I put my arm around her, she buried her face into my chest. "I can't be afraid of life."
When the doctor and nurse came back in they sat a small metal try on the bedside table. When I saw the staple and twine my stomach turned. They have to cut it out?
Marie gripped my hand. They gave her a shot to numb her arm and wiped the area they were going to cut.
When the doctor told Marie to relax her arm he started to cut the skin. Marie's face turned pale.
"Can you feel it?" I asked. I hated to see her like this.
She shook her head, but I knew she was in pain. The doctor stopped. "Okay hon. This part might hurt." I turned away
Marie squeezed my hand then let go, "alright now let's get you stitched up."
When the doctor was finished he left the room, the nurse went over Marie's discharge papers and instructions on keeping her incision clean. When the nurse left Marie stood up.
"Are you okay?" I asked her. She obviously wasn't but I had no idea how to make her feel better. I know she is only doing this because I brought it up a few weeks ago at the cabin.
Marie didn't say anything to me. I stood up and wrapped my arms around her. I felt like she was so small and helpless right now, she was scared and I have to make her feel better.
"Baby, if you don't want this.."
"I do." She cut me off.
"Marie,"
"Can we go home and talk about this?"
I sighed and with my arm around her waist we walked out of the hospital. The whole way home I thought of what to say, what to do.
When I pulled into the driveway I turned the truck off, Marie got out and walked towards the house. I stayed in the truck for a minute. When she stopped and waited for me I got out.
When we got inside Marie sat down on the couch and kicked her boots off. I helped her with her jacket then sat down with her.
"Nothing's going to happen overnight." I said.
Marie looked over at me, she scooted across the couch into my arms. This is where she belongs. How did I get so lucky to find such an amazing woman. I'll never let her go.
"We will use protection and when you decide your really ready.."
"I am, but you have to understand why.."
"Shh." I hushed her. "Your not babe, I can tell. Why are you doing this?"
"Because I want you to be happy." She whispered.
"Babe just being with you makes me happy. Don't ever think you have to do something like this just for me. I want you to be sure about every decision you make."
"I'll be right back." I said getting up off the couch, I ran up the steps and got the ring out of my dresser.
I stood in the room for a minute. How do I do this? It's not exactly going to be romantic, hmm.
I walked back downstairs with the ring in my pocket. I sat down on the couch and pulled Marie onto my lap, I kissed her hard, her hands pulled at my hair.
I slid my hands up her body, getting lost in the moment as I always did when we were together like this.
"Wait." I whispered.
"Why?" Marie asked rubbing me, making me hard for her.
I slipped the ring out of my pocket and held it up in front of her. She gasped and leaned away from me. Why is she leaning away?!
