Good Girl Gone To Fall In Love (BOOK 3)

Chapter 11

"Before freshman year my brother and I were really close. When eighth grade rolled around, he tried out for the middle school football team and, of course he got in. He met a few friends and one thing led to another we drifted apart. Not all at once, but slowly. He stopped telling me what he did in school, the he stopped playing board games with me; monopoly was our favourite," I said smiling at the memory. "But all good things must come to an end right? His friends came over a few times and of course I got a crush on one of them. Except this guy was his best friend, and I'd had a crush on him for a while." I could feel Alec tense up.

"Although, they did pick on me a lot, including Michael, I didn't care. I just went along with it. I guess what hurt the most was he didn't do shit about it, Michael, he just bullied me, or let them do it. And at that time, my parents were already divorced. Anyways, it wasn't until freshman year did I really lose it. Jackson, the guy I had a crush on, and this idiot named Justin, another football jock, made a bet on me. Apparently my crush was obvious, so Justin betted Jackson couldn't steal my first kiss before the end of freshman year, Jackson betted he could. Needless to say Justin won. I was done after that, I ran away to Las Vegas to live with my dad and I had the best time."

"So you're coming from Las Vegas?" Vivian asked. Her and Nate were sitting on the floor while I moved off of Alec and sat beside him.

"Yes, but there's more," I said. "At the end of August I thought I could face all of them after 2 years, so I went back to San Fransisco for three months. In those three months I got a crush on Justin. We had our flirtatious moments at first, including one with The Fault In Our Stars-" I paused at their confused faces.

"It's nothing. We just said how....forever will be our always." I said. My heart dropped as I remembered what he said to me, how he kissed me, how I fell for him so hard, so fast.

"Anyways, I made a bad descion and one thing led to anther and I ended back in Vegas."

"What happened?" Nate questioned.

"I don't-"

"We said no vague answers," he said. I rolled my eyes and looked down so my hair covered my face slightly.

"I-I stabbed myself. I couldn't take the pain, I don't know. It was stupid. Really really stupid. And when I woke up, I had to recover. And I left a note for Justin telling him I liked him. And when I got the courage to tell him in person, he told me right to my face I was a bet. Again."  I said.

"So I fled for Vegas where I felt at home. But the jerks only followed me there. They made my life miserable and when Justin told me I was gonna be his girlfriend I panicked and said....." my heart clutched tightly.

"What?" Vivian asked.

"I-I lied. I was under the pressure and I lied. And yeah I've lied before, but this one turned out bad," I said I bit my lip hoping to keep my eyes from watering.

"What'd you say? It couldn't have been that bad," Nate said. Alec had been silent the whole time.

"You don't understand! I killed someone! I told Justin, Zayn," a tear slipped out, it was the first time I'd said his name in weeks. "I told him Zayn was my boyfriend! I lied! Of course I told Zayn about it, but Justin went crazy and psychotic and beat Zayn to the pulp! He was put into a coma and-and!"

"Oh my god," Vivian muttered.

"And he died! He fucking died! He was like my big brother! And I killed him! If I just didn't lie! Maybe he wouldn't have died. Maybe he'd still be alive! The jerks had to go back to San Fransisco after that. After we found out he died. But that's not the only bad part, my best friend Lucy was hooking up with Justin behind my back. And my other best friend Tristan knew about it! They both didn't tell me! I was done after that. I found out Zayn died, and her big secret on the same day. I decided to leave Vegas then too. I couldn't handle the lies, and now here I am," I finished.

"And this all happened...." Nate said.

"In the coarse of 5 months," I finished.

"This all started in September?" Vivian asked shocked.

"Yeah," I said sadly. Anther tear slipped, in memory of Zayn. Oh god, it hurt so much. I just wished I could have played my move differently.

"Mel it wasn-" Nate started. "Yes it was. It is. I just didn't want to be Justin's girlfriend. And I knew if I told him that, he'd be mad. He'd do something, I don't know what he'd do, but he would have done something. He probably would have made my life more miserable then it already was," I stated.

"Don't say that Pepper. He shouldn't have that kind of power over you. You're better than him, I know it. You just need to....reinvent yourself. Become the Melody you want to be," Alec spoke for the first time.

"What are you talking about?" I asked looking up into his glass eyes.

"Do you like being shy and vulnerable? Or confident and strong?" he asked. I thought a bit it for a moment and smiled at my adventurous self.

"Well that's easy," I said with a smile. "Confident. I want to be the Melody who used to go cliff diving, and who didn't care who she was kissing after she got her first kiss. And who went sky diving, and, and had adventures with her best friends. Who went to casinos and danced the night away, and broke rules. I wanna be that Melody."

They all looked at each other and smirked.

"We could use someone like that," Vivian said. "Definitely," Nate said.

"Good, cause one way or anther you'll get her," I said with a sigh. "Your turns."

Their smirks turned into frowns and their faces turned cold.

"Yeah, our stories," Alec said with a sigh.