Shawn Mendes Imagines

roses [Illuminate series]

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Shawn

"Shawn, babe i'm going out again tonight"Y/n said wrapping her small arms from behind me

"Okay,"I said softly

"Stay safe"I continued. She smiles and nod before leaving the house, not bothering to give me a kiss like she used to.

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It's 3 am and y/n still isn't home. I'm still working on my songs. My eyes soon feel heavy and i tidy up my works. I walk towards our bed and i close my eyes.

I hear the door opened and slam shut. I slow down my breath and the door to our room opened. She put her clutch somewhere around the room and take off her earings. She took off her dress i get for her birthday 2 years ago and she tie her hair in a messy ponytail. She touch behind her ears and i saw hickies. From behind her ears, towards her chest down to her thighs. She grins widely and take off her smeared make up.

I clench and unclenched my jaw and close my eyes, drifting off to sleep. She comes towards our bed soon and she lay down far from me.

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"Y/n,"I said once we're done eating our breakfast

"Yes?"She said forcing out a smile

"How was he?"I started and she freeze in her spot, looking at me

"I'm not enough for you aren't i?"I asked and she looked down at her pancakes and started to mess around with it.

"It's okay y/n, i won't be mad. I know you're happier with him than me"I said letting out a sigh.

"Shawn--"

"Is it because we always break up and going back together? You're always the one that break up with me. How many times will you walk away y/n?"I said and she remained silent

"It's your plan to get him jealous right?"I let out a dry chuckle

"You come back to me just to make him jealous and break it off with me because he's jealous and you keep continuing it"I said

"It's not that i don't want to see you smile, but there's no way that he can feel the same like you did towards him"I said

"Why are you saying this Shawn?"She whispered. Her voice cracking, telling me that she's crying

"I love you y/n. When i think of you my mind goes wild"I said

"You can tell me to stop if you already know"She said

"Though i'm not sure your heart can take it"She continues, wiping her nose

"I'm gonna get some fresh air"I mumbled putting the dishes and walk towards out bedroom, soon to ber hers. I change into my usual outfit which consist of plain black t-shirt, jean jacket and black jeans. I walk out of the house and walk inside my car, driving to wherever the roads take me.

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I knock at our door and y/n opens it. Her lips are slightly swollen and i look at her.

"Y/n baby who's there?"A male voice asked

"I'll be back in a few"Y/n said

"Take your time"He replied and i force out a smile

"Looks like you already decide it"I said

"Y/n i got you this rose,"I said

"Y/n what taking you so long?"He groaned from inside and i feel a pang in my chest.

"Come back here and tell them to fuck off so we can continue what we're doing"He said and i feel a tear escaped my eyes.

"I-i, nevemind. I'll come back tomorrow to get my things"I croaked out and throw the rose at the ground, smashing it with my shoes. I walk towards my car and drive towards Ian's house.

I guess she's gonna let the rose die, just like our love.

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YES I'M GONNA MAKE IMAGINES BASED ON ILLUMINATE BC IT'S SO GOOD

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