Shawn Mendes Imagines

hold on [Illuminate series]

Underlined Italic ; flashbacks

Italic ; song reference

Underlined Bold Italic ; time

Ok i know shawn make this song for his father but just pretend it's for y/n, his bestfriend

Enjoyy :)

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Shawn

"This next song is called Hold On, it's for my bestfriend who commit suicide because reasons. So here it is"I said towards the mic and the crowds cheer before they quiet down

"Stop, take it in and i breath for a minute i think too much when i'm alone"

3 weeks after y/n's death

"Shawn calm down"Aaliyah and Ian said

"I can't fucking calm down! How do you feel when your bestfriend commit suicide?"I yelled at them and they stayed silent

It's been 3 weeks since y/n funeral and i can't find a way to stop thinking about her. Especially when i'm alone

"I never win when i keep my thoughts inside so i pick up the phone"

A few hours after y/n's death

"Shawn"My dad said once i picked up the phone

"Yes?"I said through the phone sitting in my tour bus

"Y/n, she commit suicide last night"He said

"She gave up"He continued. I can't feel anything. I'm numb and speechless. The tears started to form in my eyes and i finally let them free

"I'll be there soon"I whispered while hanging up

"I don't know what you're going through but there's so much life ahead of you"

1 month before y/n's death

"Shawn, i-i can't take it anymore"She cried. I hug her thightly and rubs her back

"Y/n it's okay, everything will be alright. You can do this"I said softly and her breathing started to get heavier

"Y/n"I said and her hands started to shake. I broke away from the hug and grabs her hand.

"Y/n look at me"I said grabbing her cheek. I draw small circles in her hand and kissed her forehead

"I'm here y/n"I said and her breathing started to go back to normal

"Stay with me okay?"I said and she nod, hugging me

"I don't know what you're going through y/n, but i promise you there's so much life ahead of you"I said and she nod

"I can't seem to find out how, i guess i don't know much at all"

1 month after y/n's death

I lay down in her bed and the tears started to form again.

"Why did you do this y/n"I whispered

"I don't know much at all"I said

"But i thought i did"I chuckled

"I miss you y/n"I said

"And it won't slow down, no matter what you do so you just gotta hold on"

2 weeks before y/n's death

"Y/n calm down"I said chuckling and she smile

"I-i can't calm down!"She laugh

"You're releasing an album and it just happened so fast!"She squeal and i smile

"Do you want to hear a few songs i've recorded?"I asked and she nod. We listen to my upcoming album and she can't stop smiling

"Shawn you need to slow down in this things"She joked and i rolled my eyes

"I can't slow down no matter what i do"I said

"Promise me you'll be there when the album is released"I said and she nod

"I promise"She said

The song ended and i wipe away the tears that's fallen. I lick my lips and walk towards the mic.

"Thank you"I said, my voice cracked a little and the crowds went wild. I scan the front row and see y/n's face, smiling and waving towards me. I smile at her before she disappear.

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This is sad??

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