The Cure

The Aftermath:

 Gwen:

 "Derek!! NO!!" I screeched. I screamed and screamed until my voice went hoarse. And when I couldn't scream anymore I fell to the ground sobbing. Tears were raking through my body, consuming me. "He loved me. He loved me and now he's gone. How, how can this be?" Choking sounds were coming from me and my dress was filthy. But I didn't care, he was nothing more than a memory now. His body is probably a pile of ashes now. He told me to stay safe, but he went and sacrificed himself. How could he. I finally admitted to myself and that I had a crush on him. But as always the bad things happened to me. He was ripped out of my life as soon as I fully accepted him. He was my only friend, he was my rock. And without him my facade would crumble into pieces. With nothing left standing. I am shattered. 

   Its hard to pick up everything back together, because it will haunt you. The glass will cut and you will get damaged beyond repair. But that hardest part is putting them back together. There is no way that you can put it back together perfectly. The shards won't fit together again. You can try, but it won't work. 

   "Gwen! We need to go." Macy's voice pleaded. I lifted my watery eyes off the ground. "I can't leave, he could've survived!! Maybe he's still out there!!" My voice's excitement and hope grew gradually. There was still hope. I tried to run when Macy's hand caught my arm. "Let me go!! I have to check!! Macy!! Stop!! Please!!" I tried to knock her off my arm. I had enough. I was going to check whether she liked it or not.I twisted her arm around and knocked her to the floor. I ran away and heard them screaming my name. My feet pounded against the grass and I was tackled to the floor. I clawed and scratched and screamed but i couldn't move the force that was weighing me down. I had no idea who it was but I knew that they were trying to keep me away from him. "Gwen!! We NEED to get out of here!!" I couldn't answer, the choking sounds still coming from my throat. I could hear them echo in the woods, fading away to nothing. Just like my heart, it was dissipating. I felt myself get dragged up the ramp of the aeroplane and I screamed, "Let me go!! I can get up myself!!" I was sniffling but I saw Macy and Jake let me go. "Can I- Can I just have a second?" I saw them look at each other with eyes filled with doubt, before nodding their heads. I ran inside and snatched a piece of paper "What was that number?" I grabbed my cell phone from the control board and looked at the number imprinted on the back. I scribbled down 030-050-0070* and wrote in my scratchy words "If your still here, tell me." I looked around the room for it and scanned every corner and wall until I found it. I raced toward it and looked at the bottom. It was still there. I almost tripped while trying to run on the slick surface of the control room wearing high heels. I threw them off and replaced them with Derek's large, old slip ons. 

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   "Please find this. Please be alive. Please Derek." I hoped so hard that my heart ached. For some reason I felt that Derek was still here. That he was still living and breathing, with that crooked smile still on his face. He couldn't be ripped out of my life. He was a part of me, half my heart belonged to him. And I could feel with in it, that he was still here. I squatted onto the ground and left the note and knife on the ground, and walked away. Tears were coming back up in my eyes, daring to fall out. But I could still feel my heart in the page, lying there. Waiting for him to take it.

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  I ran back into the aeroplane, avoiding the squads questions and ran into the bathroom. I lept into the shower clothes and all. I set the water to icy cold and sat down staring into space. I have nothing left to say, nothing left to do. I feel as of my purpose to keep going was taken away from me. But I had to believe, I had to hope that he was still alive. I was surviving on that one strand of hope. I wiped my hair out of my face. I placed my hand on the scanner at Derek's cabin. I walked into it and took a deep breath. Tears welled up in my eyes again. I threw off my dress and tossed it aside. I pulled out one of his drawers. I took out his slip ons, his sweats and his black hoodie. I put them on and I brought the jackets thick fabric up to my nose and breathed its fresh scent. "God. It even smells like him." I let a single, cold tear slid down my face. I wiped it away hurriedly and stood up. "Gwen." Macy called after me. I brushed right passed her, like she was just an obstacle in my way. I swung open the door to the control room angrily. People expected me to be perfect and contain it all. That perfect girl is gone. Because sometimes, I can't keep it in. I can't leave all these unsettled emotions consume me. They make me feel like its drawing me down into a sea, drowning me. I can't escape. The only thing that could take me out of entering the abyss was Derek, and now that he is gone, that ray of light he sent off can't guide me back. Now I go back to black.

END OF CHAPTER NINE

- HEY GUYS. GWEN DOESN'T KNOW IF HE'S DEAD OR ALIVE SO YEA I KINDA MADE THIS CHAPTER LIKE DEPRESSING AND STUFF.  HEHEHEHEHE(I'VE BEEN WAITING FOREVER TO POST THIS CHAPTER) YEA....  Anyways.... Did you like it? Did you hate it? Leave a comment below and don't forget to follow! OH OH OH SO I POSTED A PIC OF HOW I THINK GWEN AND DEREK LOOK LIKE ON MY TUMBLR. GO CHECK IT OUT HERE:

http://i-be-queen-v.tumblr.com/post/69541485025/like-can-we-just-forget-how-crappy-the-transition

*OH BTW IF THIS WAS ANYONE'S REAL PHONE NUMBER... I SOWWY.