Chapter 15: I Guess I Should Stop
You know, if Alex (or any of the boys for that matter) get caught eavesdropping I might kill them. Depending on who they may be. If it were Alex I would sneak in her room in the middle of the night with a butcher's knife and kill her slowly yet repeatedly and then put her lifeless body into a sack of potatoes and head straight for the farthest hill I could find and burry her there. After that I would park outside a convenience store and buy myself some Tic Tacs.
But if it were one of the boys, I'd probably go ballistic for like two seconds and then get over it.
No just kidding.
Anyways, I stopped laughing after a while just to catch a breath and calm myself. Niall's snickers and chuckles were the only sounds I could hear. And that alone made me smile wholeheartedly. My heart resumed its normal beating. After a while I hear Niall catch his own breath and he stops laughing. My head is turned towards the direction of the door so I can't really see him.
But I can very much tell that he's smiling.
I feel a pair of eyes stare at the back of my head and I turn around. I catch Niall's eyes and he smiles a smile that reaches up to his eyes. I look intensely into his blue irises. Little specks of green traced around the blue colour that almost matched mine.
But my eyes can never compare to his.
Too many emotions were floating inside me right now. A sudden urge to grab him and pull him close washed over me and I tried my best to fight that feeling.
I guess I should stop.
I look away from his eyes. I can sense that he's dissapointed that I broke our little staring session but I couldn't possibly continue to look into his eyes. His happiness and his bubbliness only made me fall for him even faster and I can't allow that to happen.
Why?
Because he's Niall Horan. And I'm just Anthea Toledo. I'm just that cashier at Forever 21 trying to please everyone. I'm just that girl's best friend. I'm just some desperate girl-next-door trying to make a future out of her shitty life.
I'm not the girl the guy runs to.
I'm the girl the guy runs from. I'm the girl who is never good enough. I'm the girl who's father is useless.
I'm the girl love hates.
Love never worked out from me and I'm tired of trying it. It never ended up well and Niall is no exception. Niall will just be a bubbly face that I somehow fell in love with so fast. This is all so fast. I don't wanna fall in love with Niall and end up getting hurt. But then again how could he have broken my heart when it wasn't even whole to start with? When there was no 'us'?
I genuinely don't know.
I turn my head back to Niall and I smile "That was fun." I let out a small laugh "I'll be heading back now." I hop off the stool and re-enter the living room where everyone was laughing at something.
"What's so funny?"
At the sound of my voice, everybody stops laughing and looks in my direction.
"Nothing. Nothing at all." Louis snickers, winking at Alex and my eyes trail to her and she smirks at me.
This is not good.
I try to act cool and be nonchalant about it so I just shrug and sit down beside my purse. I unzip it and bring out my iPod and plunge my earphones onto my ears, pressing shuffle.
"I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place"
Bubbly by Colbie Caillat came on and I started to sing along. THIS IS MY JAM.
"It starts from my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
You make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where you go"
The lyrics flowed endlessly. Each note meaning more than the other. After a while I stopped singing. I opened my eyes and everyone was staring at me, jaws dropped to the floor. Except for Alex. Alex was smiling gently. I removed my earphones and looked around curiously.
"What?" I ask, fiddling with the hem of my shirt.
"I didn't know you could sing like that." Niall mutters breathlessly.
"I don't." I state.
"Yeah you do. We all heard it." Zayn says while smiling.
"Uhhh. . ." I stutter, racking my brain for things to say.
"Don't deny it love. You were great." Liam smiles gently.
"Yeah but. . ."
"No 'buts'. You are a great singer. End of discussion." Louis says and I sigh, completely resigned.
I guess I should really stop.
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