Guys Like You

Chapter 19: Since When Did Louis Tomlinson Look Like Leonardo Dicaprio?

ATTENTION!

Very important Author's Note in the end of this chapter! Also very sorry for the long wait! :) xx

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Chapter 19: Since When Did Louis Tomlinson Look Like Leonardo Dicaprio?

"Didn't Niall tell you? We're going back on tour."

Upon hearing the words, I almost fly out my seat in pure shock. My eyes were wide and my jaw reached the floor. I mean, there could be some explanation that Niall didn't tell me he was going back on tour, right? He didn't mean to not tell me, right? Oh God I need someone to reassure me. My mind is going balliistic right now. I feel like I'm going to puke when I hear another word.

They were going back on tour.

Just when Niall decided to ask me that stupid question.

Oh God I make it sound like a wedding proposal.

"I. . .he didn't tell me yet." I managed to choke out, taking a huge sip from my glass. This was so impossible. I don't know how to handle long distance relationships, let alone with a popstar. How am I going to survive without Niall around? This is going to be so hard.

"Oh. . .sorry." Liam scratched the back of his neck sheepishly and I offered him a small smile, feeling completely bummed out. What really bothered me though, was the massive smiles on Pia and Alex's faces. They couldn't be happy that the boys were leaving, right?

"Oh my God Anthea have you not caught up yet?" Pia smirked and I shook my head, no. Caught up on what?

"What the hell are you talking about?" I ask, furrowing my eyebrows in confusion.

"You're a bit slow today now, aren't ya?" Alex chuckled as my face contorted more into confusion.

"Just tell me dammit!" I say exasperatedly. What are these two hiding?

"We're coming along, dummy! Why else would they be here?" Alex laughed when she saw my expressions. Yes, expressions. First, my face went from confused to happy then to scared. Second, you couldn't possibly blame me right? I'm not alone in this, am I?

Okay, I was confused because like, how the hell did this happen? Were they supposed to just tell me now? I was happy because I'd get to spend a lot more time with Niall and the boys and get to travel most of London while I'm at it, but I'm scared because, what would happen in this trip? I think my feelings for Niall are getting a bit stronger everyday and I'm afraid. So, so immensely afraid that my hands are starting to shake. I can't fall in love. Even with a seemingly perfect guy like Niall. I can't risk anything. If I fell in love I'd be putting my whole life on the line. 

I don't wanna experience what I've dealt with when I was with Nick. I don't want that to happen again. The scariest thing was that Nick and Niall were very alike in so many different ways. They both showed me how strong their feelings were and look what it got me to. A sad girl who was like the moon --part of her always seemed to be hidden.

I'm very indecesive right now, I would say.

"Uhm. . .can I talk to you for a minute, please?" I ask, my voice trembling as Alex looks at me with concern. The feeling quickly spreading through her green eyes. "Sure." she says as she follows me to the kitchen. 

"What's wrong?" Alex asks as soon as the doors close. It took everything in me to not break down in front of her.

"I'm afraid, Al." I choke, a few tears spilling. Just a few though.

"Hey hey, don't cry." Alex cooes as she gently coaxes me into an embrace. "What are you so afraid of?" she asks, rubbing my arm.

"I'm afraid of love, Al. What if I fall in love again?" I ask, sniffing "Tell me what's so wrong about that?" Alex asks and I sigh, I love her don't get me wrong, but she could be so clueless at times.