Guys Like You

Chapter 31: Back On The Road With A Death Wish

Chapter 31: Back On The Road With A Death Wish

"Call me when you get there, okay?" I tell Niall as he nods giving me one final hug as he smiled at me "I can't believe I'm going back on the road with a death wish." Niall tells me and I laugh, hitting his chest playfully. "Calm down, I'm sure you'll live." I say as he grins knowingly at me. Paul interrupts our moment as he tells the lads that they have to get going soon. Giving Niall one last smile and a squeeze as well as the other lads, soon enough Alex and I were standing outside their bus, waving goodbye.

We were supposed to go with them but due to Pia's accident involving some asshole driver, we couldn't come along.

Stupid driver.

I sighed as Alex gave me a sad smile, patting my back as she hailed a cab for us. I honestly forgot the fact that they had a bunch of other responsibilites that they need to take care of. 

As I entered the cab, my thoughts began to wander around everything that had happened in my life so far. I still can't believe that I'm here right now. If it weren't for that person throwing a cellphone at the back of my head I literally wouldn't get to live this life. 

This life where I met this boy who changed my previous life. I can't even process the fact that I'm with Niall.

And just the thought of that makes everything feel right.

There's nothing that's suffocating me anymore. I can breathe easily, I'm free. It's like I let go of something I never should have had in the first place. It's an indescribable emotion and I feel as though I'm lucky to have to feel it with all my being.

My head is rested against the tinted windows as soft raindrops begin to patter, hitting the glass. My thoughts are still dangerous territory, there's no doubting that. And as I observe the streets that pass by us, the people walking on the pavement, the clouds that had set in the sky, blocking out the sun, I realise something.

I love Niall.

I love him. And maybe I've loved him for a while but I never noticed but what mattered is that I realise that now. It's scary how strong my feelings for him are. I've no idea how it got this far, but I'm not afraid. I trust Niall and I believe that he won't ever hurt me. I don't know if I'm ready for this yet. I've been with lots of men in the past, all treating me like a princess. But with Niall, I fit in. I'm not a princess to him, I'm something better, something more. Call me vain but that's what I think.

As I hear the gentle sound of the raindrops clashing against the concrete, I think that maybe he isn't the same. He's done enough to prove that to me. Guys like him only come once in a lifetime and I'm not just about to let him go so he can fall to someone else's arms. Niall is mine and I am his. 

I don't know if he feels the same way about me, the idea of him turning me down left my heart shattered into a billion pieces. He's grown on me. The way he talks, the way he laughs, the way his eyes light up, the way his dimples appear on his cheeks, the way his hair falls perfectly, the way he treats everyone like family, everything about him is so intoxicating that I'm drunk on the idea of being in love with him.

I close my eyes and smile, happy that I've come to terms with my feelings. I'm still not confident enough to tell him that I love him. Maybe someday when I'm old and gray I'll have it in me to confess to him, to tell him that I want my forever to be with him.

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"You alright?" Alex asks me when we're in the lift heading up to our floor. I grin widely at her "Yeah, I'm perfect." I tell her and she seems satisfied with my answer as her eyes shine and her lips grace a charming smile.