"I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you."
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"I really want to kiss you right now."
"Then kiss me until I forget how terrified I am of everything wrong with my life."
I was still in shock that Taehyung has now turned into a drunkard. I hate to say it, but that's just what he's made himself into. I don't think I'm ready to face him.
I mean I am kind of traumitized by the fact that my father is the biggest drunkard in the world and he starts abusing me. That's the biggest reason on why I don't want to face Tae right now. I don't want to be hit by his hands that once carressed my hair, and held me close to his body when I was upset.
"Noona!" Jungkook yelled in my face as I was daydreaming in the hallway at my locker.
"Yeah, Jungkook?" I was curious what he wanted after I saw the restlessness in his eyes. He was desperate for something.
He leaned closer and whispered, "When are you going to go see Taehyung hyung?"
"To be honest, I don't know if I can."
He suddenly grabbed my arm, making me turn to face him. His grip was tight and his eyes were fierce.
"Why not?" He asked, his voice full of anger.
Not knowing, my eyes started to tear up as I'm not used to seeing this side of Jungkook.
"Can I trust you?" I asked with my voice shaking, making anyone know I was scared of something.
He loosened his grip around my wrist and pulled me in a hug. Not too awkward, but not too close at the same time. I would describe this hug as 'comfortable'.
"You can trust me with anything." I sensed the sincerity in his voice. I pulled away from the hug.
"My appa, he gets drunk... A LOT, and when he's not in his senses, he hits me over little things like 'the light in this room is too bright' or 'there's too much/less salt in the food'. I don't want to be hit by Tae because I don't want anything to go wrong between us, Kookie."
His eyes suddenly widened, with his hands now in fists. He looked like he needed to hit something to take out his anger.
"Trust me Noona, hyung will do nothing like that to you... No matter if he's out of his senses, or possessed by a ghost, he will never be able to hurt you with his own hands, because that's how much he loves you." He said reassuring me that everything was going to be fine.
"Are you sure Jungkook?"
"I'm positive Noona!" He said cheerfully, with his bunny smile showing. Man, this kid is so bipolar.
-8:45pm-
I rang the door bell of Jungkook's house, letting my ears hear the moans of frusturation from Taehyung.
The knob turned as I saw who pulled the door. Without looking up, he asked me
"What do you want?!"
"Yah!" I yelled at Taehyung, making his head jerk up very fast. He looked at me like I was a complete stranger.
I was so hurt. I kept starring into his eyes hoping for him to recognise me. It took him 0.1 seconds until he had tears running down his cheeks. I looked down to the hands I wanted to hold so much, but they were holding beer bottles. My hands' place has been taken over by beer bottles. I guess he realised that I was sterring at his hands, so he suddenly hid his hands behind his back, making me look back into his eyes. He was craving something.
I couldn't bear the distance between us anymore either as I was craving something too.
It's like he knew I was going to jump into his arms, that's why he turned away leaving the door wide open, chugging down alcohol as he knows I hate when people drink irresponsibly.
He plopped himself on the couch and continued watching 'The Bugs Bunny and Tweety Show'. He was comletely ignoring me which is why I decided to sit on his lap, causing him to choke on his spit with my sudden action.
He immediately dropped the bottle of liquor on the carpet, making me glad it didn't make a sound.
Even if it did, Jungkook made sure Tae's Omma and Yeri were all out of the house when I decided to visit.
He was trying to resist touching me, that's why I grabbed his arm and put it around my waist, making him breathe heavily. I pulled him into a hug, taking in his amazing scent which hasn't changed a bit. I could tell he missed me, his grip was tight, not giving a sign on letting me go. I whispered in his ears...
"The only thing to need to be addicted to is me. I'll be your drug."
"I need you... I REALLY need you Joohyun..." He said in between his sobs.
I pulled away from the hug and used my thumbs to wipe away his tears. He rested his forhead on mine.
"Can you stay with me?" He asked, as if he was going to lose everything.
"Forever." I said.
"Forever?"
"Yah! I already said forever!" I said, a little annoyed.
He started to chuckle into my neck, I joined him. He looked up at me, staring me dead in the eyes with his charming, box smile.
"I love you." He said.
"I love you too."
The last thing we said to each other before our lips met...
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