Levi's Diary
I need to stop. Now. Whatever is going on with Eren is strictly forbidden, it's in the rules! Any relations with a cadet is illegal in the eyes of the Survey Corps; and Eren especially! He's humanity's last hope, and he needs to focus on his job. I'm the strongest warrior and I need to set a good example, no matter what perspective I look at it from it's wrong. I feel terrible for getting his hopes up so I'm trying to distance myself, but he always finds a way to get me back again!
He's so adorable, almost like a child sometimes, and then others he looks so mature; and those eyes look like they've seen so much, so mysterious...I'm a bit worried about him though...his blood tests haven't come back yet and I suspect the worst; Hanji's always really quick at doing stuff like that...
And I've seen the looks she gives him anytime she sees us, like she pity's him...I just hope that I'm wrong because I couldn't stand losing someone else now that I've got close to him...
I haven't got my results back either, but I'm trying not to worry about it. I haven't been zoning out as much recently, maybe it's because I'm with Eren and I've been trying not to. It only really happened when I'm alone; and I've worked out that it's normally when I'm particularly tired or worried about something. So I've been trying not to worry.
And I know that I finished my last entry strangely, but I thought I wasn't going to write anything again so I guess I was saying goodbye...although why I'm saying goodbye to a book I don't know...this is the only place that I'm ever completely honest about what I'm feeling.
Right now if I'm going to be honest- I am terrified. I don't know what to do about Eren, because I'm getting his hopes up, but I really like him, and I don't want to hurt him...it's confusing...
Maybe I should just tell him, that's the best idea...
But I'm terrible at explaining how I feel and I know I would just mess it up, then I would just look pathetic and Eren would try even harder because he knows I'm finding it hard to refuse him as it is...
I'll figure it out sometime...
I think I'll go now...bye...
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