Heal My Heart

N i n e t y : S c o t t

Dedicated to @-electrified for being oh-so-patient 😁
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We talked late into the evening.

It was amazing how much Charlie had to say. I understood his hesitance and his betrayal. And slowly Charlie was inching toward me. "It's getting late." I commented, looking around.

"Can we stay here forever?" He asked with a small smile. "It's so quiet here."

"It is pretty quiet huh?"

We enjoyed the silence for a good while, watching the sun set. The sky was dazzling colors and Charlie tucked himself under my arm. I rested my chin on his head and relished the closeness. I missed this. The peacefulness of our love. He still loved me, he assured me.

I had reminded him that I had never stopped. "I think I know why." He whispered.

"Why what?"

"Why you cheated on me."

"I was stupid--"

"You needed something you thought I couldn't give you. Had you asked, I would have been there Scott." He looked worriedly at me. "I saw you taking on so much. Running a business, taking care of two subs and a baby... That's a lot for any Dom...much less someone like you."

My stomach clenched uncomfortably. "What do you mean?" I tried speak lightly, to move on the conversation. "Ready to go?"

"Not quite yet." He got up on his knees and put his hands on my face. The gesture was new for him--he never did this. He kissed me.

It felt good to his lips on mine. He hadn't really kissed me since the night everything went to hell. The thing that got me was that he was controlling the kiss. His tongue demanded control. He pulled back, tugging lightly on my bottom lip like I would to him. "If you need to submit to someone, I want it to be me."

"I don't need--" I felt sick by his accusation. It couldn't be possible...

"Robtoy calls it Dissociative Role Behavior. Cruel people call it being a Switch."

"I'm not--" my voice shook.

"We don't need labels Scott. We're equals--remember when you told me that? And I love that about you. Who tops and who bottoms doesn't matter. Sometimes you need support--that's nothing to be ashamed of!" I tried to look away from him but his eyes captured mine. "Being so afraid to be open with me that you nearly threw everything away is something to be ashamed of."

"What are you saying?" My voice shook. "I'm a freak of nature. How can you be okay with that?"

"When I came here I couldn't even use a spoon. And you loved me anyway. This is nothing. Okay?" He asked, tone a bit firmer. It was almost comforting. Mostly however, it was amusing. "So be my good boy and be honest."

"Getting a bit bold are we?" I asked with a smile.

"Maybe." He looked down. "My hand's been looking awfully plain lately."

I inhaled sharply. "Are you saying--"

"I'm saying I'll be engaged to you again. And this time next year, as long as we both don't fuck up, we'll be married."

I kissed him hard. "Thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you Charlie. I'm going to cherish you every moment of every day. I'll never take a single moment together for granted ever again--"

He cut me off with a kiss. "Don't be cheesy," he said teasingly. He got up and held out his hand. "Ready to go home? I need to apologize to Bailey."

"You do?"

"I pushed him."

"You said it was an accident."

"It was but I still should apologize. I haven't been very nice to our housemates lately."

"You and Leah haven't been seeing eye-to-eye?"

"I was feeling sort of left out at first. And then we were separated I guess I was bitter. If I wasn't happy, why should they be?" He laughed a bit. "When we get home, can we watch a movie? It feels like it's been forever."

"Whatever you want."

"And if that jello is still up for grabs I think I'd like it."

I smiled and chuckled. "Sure. Whatever you want dear."

***

While he went in to speak to Bailey I went out to check on the horses.

I was making my rounds when I received the text.

I'm coming back for him. Tell him I'm sorry.

I stared at the phone in utter shock. It couldn't be...

Kyle.

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