Family

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I was waiting for over 2 hours and there was no sign of them. I was a wreck. I had been pacing up and down my room for so long that my legs were beginning to ache. I kept asking myself the same questions over and over again 'where have they actually gone?', 'what is PJ doing to make them panic so much?' And 'why wouldn't Dan let me go with them?'.

About 15 minutes later I heard the front door open and I gasped "PJ!" I ran out of my room and into the hall and I saw Dan, Phil and Chris walking behind PJ who was looking at his feet glumly. "PJ! What happened? Where did you go?" I embraced him but he didn't hug me back "let me go Y/N.." what was wrong with him? Why was he resenting me all of a sudden?.

"PJ?" He shoved me away with such a force that I fell back and hit my head on the wall "I SAID LET ME GO" I groaned, my vision was going blurry because of the tears in my eyes and the back of my head was so painful. "PJ? WHAT THE FUCK??" Dan yelled, I sank down with my back against the wall while Chris and Phil looked at my head.

"WHY DID YOU DO THAT?" I wiped some of the tears out of my eyes and regained some of my vision, just enough to see Dan backing PJ up against the wall. I stood up slowly, my head was still throbbing so I tried not to aggravate the injury by moving too fast "PJ, please, calm down" I held my hands out towards him and started to walk towards him slowly "Y/N.." Dan tried to stop me from getting too close but I shushed him "trust me Dan, I know what I'm doing".

Dan moved back so I could walk past "PJ, you don't have to be like this, just calm down and we can sort this out" I felt like I was getting through to him until I realised what he was doing. His fists were clenched and shaking by his side while his pupils were dilated and he was breathing heavily through his nose.

"This isn't you PJ" I made sure I remained a safe distance away from him "the PJ I know is calm, caring and peaceful, not violent, irresponsible and aggressive" just when I thought I was getting him to calm down he held up his hand and slapped me hard across the face.

"Y/N!" Dan pushed PJ back away from me and I fell on the floor and this time I didn't get back up. Dan rushed to my side, leaving Phil and Chris to deal with PJ "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU??" Dan screamed at PJ, the pain in the back of my head and my cheek was unbearable.

"PJ, go to your room and calm down" Phil tried to reason with him but he still didn't listen "STOP TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN! THATS NEVER EVER WORKED FOR ANYONE! IT JUST MAKES THEM MORE AGITATED!" At least there was still a bit of the old PJ in there, no matter what he's done he will always be a smart ass.

"I don't care! Now get in to your room while we look after your cousin" Phil opened the door to his bed room and pushed him in, while Chris got a chair from the kitchen to prop up against the door so he can't get out. "What the bloody hell is wrong with him today?" Phil panted "we can worry about that later! Y/N's bleeding!" I felt my eye lids become heavy all of a sudden and I kept slipping in and out of consciousness.

"WE'RE LOOSING HER!" Dan screamed, I started to panic myself, what would happen if I fell asleep? Would I ever wake up? "Shit, I'll get a towel to stop the bleeding, Dan, Chris, get her in to her room" Chris kneeled down next to me to help Dan lift me up and that's when I went unconscious.

PJs POV-

I threw my fists against my bedroom door and began to cry, what the fuck am I doing and why? I keep loosing control of my emotions and hurting the people I love the most. I was disgusted with myself, Y/N did nothing to deserve what I did to her.

I sank to my knees and curled up into a ball, what am I going to do?