Lovestrong.

Love and Hate

*Alex POV*

A rush of depression made its way in me and made a home in my heart. As the depression made its mark, my heart slowly broke at what I had just been told. Cancer. The love of my life as cancer. It must be a joke she didn't even look at me when she said it. She rolled off of me and pressed her back against the wall.

"I'm sorry" she whispered.

"Why? It's not your fault" I said still trying to process the one word that meant death a fight for survival against your own immune system. Imagine how she must feels right now. Ellie didn't say a word. I turned my head to find her looking down at the floor. Her curls covering the sides of her face.

Then, suddenly words of hope rushed through me making the terrible news a little less heartbreaking. She can fight this. I thought to myself She is strong enough. She just has to believe that she can do it have hope in herself and of course take the medication. However, she had her moments where she'd lack faith in herself and sometimes faith in others. I have to be there to knock down those moments and comfort her no matter what but, first I need to make sure one thing.

"You're gonna fight this, right?"

"Yeah! But, there's a chance I won't......."

"Please don't say it you're gonna get through this..., we're gonna get through this" I said grabbing her hand.

"But, you have a lot to do, school, your little sister" she said removing her hand from my hold completely ignoring what I had just said.

"I'll find a way but, I am going to be there for you no matter what and I don't care how badly you don't want me to be I'm going to be there with you, for you." I insisted. It killed me that she is so afraid to ask for help. Like it was a sin to ask to be picked up and put back on her feet again. She enjoyed being independent and hated feeling helpless. I always loved that about her but hated it at the same time.

She nodded her head in agreement but, what looked like unsatisfaction . I ignored it though instead, I put my arm around her shoulders forcing her to come closer. Her head rested on my chest and as she forced her fingers inbetween mine she made me smile just a little.  Silence was filling the air as she fell asleep on my chest like she always did.

"Babe?" her sweet voice lingered in my ears making me go crazy.

"Yeah"

"Promise me you will take care of your sister Sarah before me." My little sister needs me as well. My mother is never really around and my father died in a car crash years ago. I did things that I regret doing after he passed.

"I promise" I said closing my eyes and listened to her humming. Soon we fell asleep in a cradled position together like we always did snuggled up together.

*Ellie's POV"

I woke choking a pillow and laying in my bed, the covers covering my body from my toes to my shoulders. I could've swore that I was leaning on Alex next to the window. He probably went home. I jumped out of bed and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and picked up my wild hair. I sighed to myself in the thought that in a few weeks this would be gone. I took a few to admire it. Its beautiful color red and the natural highlights that nobody could be able to tell but me. It reached down my back and touched the crack of my ass.

I starred in the mirror attempting to find my beautiful features Alex always say's that I possess but, couldn't find any. I forced out a smile and cleared my throat.

I left the bathroom and walked down the hallway admiring the pictures on the champiagne colored walls. There was one on my sixth birthday. My hair was striaght parted in the middle and still a cartoon colored red. I was holding a bowling ball and smiling missing two of my front teeth. I walked down the steps quitely to find Alex's jacket still hanging on the coat rack. Then, I heard whispering coming from the kitchen. I creeped over to the kitchen quitely and hid behind the wall that allowed me to enter the kitchen.

"Whatever, happens you have to be there for her" mother said sounding stern as if she was giving a lecture to her least favorite person in the world.

"I know" Alex voice ringing in my ears."I promised myself that I'd be there for her"

"Okay I just need you to know that know matter how much I can't stand your past and everything you did I'm glad your committed to her and I'm willing to let my haterd go and welcome you as my own" mother said sounding as if she forced the words out of her mouth but, meant every word.

My heart filled with joy hearing those words come out my mothers mouth to Alex. Was she actually excepting him? Was she actually warming up to him? Or is it just because I have cancer? I walked into the kitchen and made my presence known with a simply yawn.

"Hi" I said pretending that I didn't hear anything they were saying. I looked at Alex his face expression telling me he was happy.

"Had a nice sleep?" mother said smiling at me.

"Ummmm yeah" I said looking down on the floor. I walked closer to mom and Alex. The smile of rice and beans making a bit dizzy.

"Whats going on" I said trying to make believe I heard nothing before I entered the room.

"Oh I was thinking that you should talk to your father and let him know about this disease you developed." mother said her words echoing in my ears. My heart rate grew faster when ever she spoke of him the man I once called my father.

"You mean Bill, right?" I needed to clarify that she was talking about the man who left us broken down and left me to fed for myself while, mother worked inbetween jobs.

"Yes.... Ellie your dad" she said. I backed away from them both ready to leave the room in deep thought of him the person who left and never came back. "Ellie please listen to me your father deserves to kmow about the situtation. Maybe he can give you money and better you chances on beating this and never having to come back to." she said giving me a symmpatic look. I turned to Alex to find him with his head down eyes glued to the floor.

"Ellie please.........."

"NO! HE DOESN'T EVEN DESERVE TO KNOW THE COLOR OF MY HAIR. HE ABANDONED US AND NOW YOU WANT TO BRING HIM BACK JUST BECAUSE I MIGHT DIE. NO! I'M NOT TELLING HIM ANYTHING." I interuppted her before I even had a chance to think about what I was going say. Mom said nothing instead, she looked down on the floor, allowjng me to dismiss myself from her presence.

He guys sorry if this chapter is a little shitty or messy but I hope you like it please comment on any mistakes or any way to improve this chapter just so I can better.