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Famous Last Words

I woke up to birds chirping and the sunlights rays reflecting through the window. Making me stuff my face into the pillow.

"They need to put some fucking curtains in this room!" I growled into the pillow then, rolling over on my back and a taking deep breath in and out.

After being completely pissed off for a second  I smiled. I was completely relieved that I woke up today. I could be dead but I am not and that meant the world to me at the moment. I know having a disease is not the best situation in the world. In fact it just might be one of the worst but, I also know that thinking negative is not going to get me anywhere. This whole cancer shit will be over soon and I will soon be free. The biggest smile ran across my face when I thought of freedom. By freedom I mean walking around the corner or climbing the trees at central park, running out in pouring rain and being the reckless teenager I once was with Alex and before this whole cancer crap.

Grabbing my phone from underneath the pillow I opened my text messages and seen a billion messages from mom asking me if I am ok. Instead of responded back to mom I went straight to Alex contact and texted him a goodmorning and a smiley face. After I sent that text I thought it was a bit much but barely gave a shit about that. I missed him and couldn't hang on any longer. I needed to speak to him, I needed his warm and loving soul again.

No more than 30 seconds later I got a text from Alex saying the same thing and from there on out we were texting all morning and catching up on what have been going on with our lives.

*The afternoon*

Alex was at school probably doing a test or some boring lesson one of the teacher have planned while, I was at the group meeting with Faith.

We have gotten pretty close. She has become the little sister I never had. We both liked the same bands, the same style, and at times like doing the same thing which is completely insane. I never saw myself getting extremely attached to her in fact, I thought that every time I'd try to talk to her she'd shout abuse at me but she didn't. Instead, she invites me to sit on the floor with her and talks to me.

We sat down watching the kids play with each other in our signature corner. I grabbed my phone and headphones. Plugging them in and going to my music player and clicked on My Chemical Romance.

Passing my right earbud to Faith "My Chemical Romance?"

"Yes, please" Faith responded.

"Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo and counting down the days to go. It just ain't living and I just hope you know that if you say goodbye today I'd ask you to be true because the hardest part of this is leaving you" we sang along with Gerard Way.

To be honest the song was bumming down my mood. So I changed it to Welcome to the black parade. In my personally opinion one of the bands best song. It really pumped up my mood and made me happy to walk alone and helped me over come my fear of death.

When the song started playing Faith looked at me eyes wide with joy. "I LOVE THIS SONG" she screamed at me and began to sing the words from the top of her lungs. At first I was a bit embarrassed as the children starred at us while  Faith went crazy. It was almost as if she forgot where she was. Once I got over the starring eyes I screamed along with her.

"WE'LL CARRY ON WE'LL CARRY ON....." I began to lose myself it felt like it was just Faith and I screaming out lyrics. It was as if we didn't give two fucks about the starring eyes and their judgemental faces. I closed my eyes and screamed louder to my favorite song. The song that made me smile no matter what I was going through.

When the program was over Faith and I said our goodbyes and went back to our rooms. It was sad to leave again and go back to being lonely for the rest of the day but I tried not to think about How lonely I feel sometimes because I know I will become depressed and that is not something I need right now.

As I walked back to my room I saw one of the nurses walk through the emergency staircase. The staircase made no nose and I began to think to myself if it would lead to the roof. Oh Faither would love it if we got to go outside she hasn't been outside in years and I know she'd enjoy it. I ran back to Faith and look look ed for her room. When I found it. I walked over and sat at her bed side.

"Faither?" I said facing her and tapping her lightly.

"Yeah?"

"Tonight do you wanna go to the roof?"

Her face lightened up with excitement before responding "Yes".

"Okay great so around ten meet me on the fourth floor near the emergency exit." I said getting up ready to walk out of the room.

"Wait Ellie" Faith shouted making me turn around "What if someone sees me?"

"Tell them you're looking for a vending machine or something."

*Night Time*

I stood at the doorway of the emergency exit waiting for Faith. I held two sweaters for Her and I. I knew it was below 50 degrees But it was better than nothing. When I saw Faith she looked all nervous and scared.

I raised an eyebrow on the paranoid child "Relax Faither you're not robbing a bank." I chuckled opening the door "You first." I said motioning her into the staircase. We walked all the way up the stairs to the finally doors. Both of us struggling for air.

We both starred as t the door that led to the roof. Both of us sharing the same thought. Who will go in first? I pushed the door open and felt the cold breeze hit my face. Faith followed me and both our eyes starred in amazement. Our bodies stood side to side. The stars were shining brighter than ever before. The moon was full and huge I held my hand out and imagined grabbing it. Not only were the stars shining and the moon full it was snowing and not the blizzard type. It was the beautiful soft kind that you can run around in and see what's only a foot away.

Faither and I ran around the roof top catching the snow with our mouths for hours. We screamed and laughed and rolled on the floor. Even though, it was cold outside we didn't care. We were to busy having fun.

Once we got tired we sat down on the edge of the roof and let our feet hang off. It was a little nerve recking letting our feet hang off the edge but we eventually got used to it.

"Thank you." Faither said giving me a smile.

"No problem" I said returning the smile.

For the rest of the night we stayed up there until dawn and then rushed back into the rooms hoping that we'd do this again soon.

This whole experience made me realize that my life isn't over yet and that if Faith can be happy I can too. I don't have to be afraid to die because eventually it will happen to everyone.

Haii I am sooooooo sorry for the lack of updates But I hope this was a good chapter. Stay beautiful people. :D