Lovestrong.

Telling him

*Alex POV*

I rang the door bell to Ellie's house. I figured I'd surprise her since she hasnt been answering any of my text messages or phone calls. I waited on the wooden porch for quite sometime. It was freezing outside and the trees lost their leaves in a battle with the wind. Just when I was about to leave the porch with the thought that nobody was home, the door opened.

Ellie's mother stood in the doorway and shot me a unwelcoming look. She was  blonde with a slim figure. She was a middle aged lady with brown eyes and a pale complexion. Linda never really liked me or enjoyed my company. She hates the fact that Ellie and I are dating. I'm not gonna lie I gave her a reason to. I used to sleep around with teenage girls sometimes college girls if they were dumb enough. It also didn't help that Linda new every single mother in the neighborhood and girls and gossip don't go well together. One minute you think you're having a good time sleeping around and nobody will know then the next you find people whispering and talking about you like your some kind of superstar.

However, Ellie........Ellie tamed me. To her I was nothing but, a jerk....a fuck up. It wasn't until our science teacher Mr.Walts assigned us to do a project together. One day she got really pissed off with me and told me off and thats when I realized that I had feelings for her because she was the only one that told me the truth even though it hurt and made me want to change my ways.

"Hi Linda is Ellie home I texted her and she did not respond is she okay" I said. Instead, of speaking she motioned me inside the house.

The house looked like a mess. It was dark. Curtains were closed, no lights on, and it was almost as if the sunlight was scared to come in.

"Ellie's upstairs in her room she has not come down all day" her mother said to me.

Her mother never let me in her room alone with her. We were only allowed in the living room and at that she would spy on us through the kitchen doorway but, I never really cared as long as I got to spend time with Ellie I was okay. She is my world sometimes I can't even imagine life without her.

"I'm leaving for the super market in a few can you keep an eye on Ellie please and you can go up to her room I'd doubt she'd want to come out of the room." she said.

Why would Ellie need to be looked after she is old enough to take care of herself? Why wouldn't she come out the room? These questions ran in my head but, I didnot bother to ask it was the first time I'd get to be alone with her. I nodded my head and headed upstairs.

I opened two room doors before I actually got to Ellies. I knocked on the door still no answer. I slowly turned the knob and opened the door. It was dark in the room once again no light was peeking through the window. Her walls were covered with her writing, a paino stood in the left corner in one side of the room and a acoustic guitar sat in the other and a desk that was a bed for for her laptop. Her bed layed in the middle of the room leaning against a wall.

As my eyes circulated around the room I found Ellie leaning on the wall next to her window a sleep. She had music blasting in her ears and her phone sat next to her. Her hair color looked like a cartoon red with curls. She sat with her legs pulled up to her chest. I began walking towards her with the intention of waking her up but, when i got near her I was hesitant she looked so peaceful and I didn't want to stare at her. So I turned around and was ready to leave her room and most likely come back later. But, then I heard Ellie call my name a few times and when I turned back around her green eyes were open matching making her skin complexion and her beauty complete.

She gave me a loving smile and motioned me to come back.

*Ellie's POV*

Alex walked towards me with a smile. He was wearing a collared shirt with jeans and sneakers. His usually look. His hair was naturally curly and always made me want to run my fingers through it or mess it up whenever I got the chance. He himself was just fucking cute. Once he sat down next to me I rested my head on his shoulder. I didnot know where to begin. I don't know how to tell him that I'm going to be battling cancer for quite sometime. He didn't even know I got tested for it. Which made me feel like shit because I'm keeping such a huge secret from him.

Alex turned his head and kissed the top of my head. It was silent for a while and I still didn't know where to begin. I closed my eyes as he grabbed my hand,his fingers shoving their way inbetween mine.

"Ummmmmmmm...." he said. With his free hand brushing his fingertips on my knuckles.

I opened my eyes and took my head off his shoulder and turned my body to face him but, keeping our hands locked together.

"What?" I asked curious for his 'ummmmmmmm'

"Oh nothing......" he said smiling at me making me melt on the inside.

"WHAT?" I demanded some what blushing.

"I'm thinking"

"About...???"

"This is the first time I get to be in your room.....its nice"

My eyes traveled across the room in search for something nice but, all i saw was darkness and a place I'm gonna miss so much. He looked over to me and pushed out his lips for a kiss. I didnt hesitate to gentally press my lips against his but, then quickly letting go and turning my head. He grabbed my chin and kept pressing his soft lips against mine. Soon we were sticking eachothers tongues down eachothers throats. As nasty as that sounds it tasted beautiful. I sat on top of him wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck.

After, a few more moments the fact that I had cancer creeped its way into my brain and never left. So, while I kissed him my death sentence remained fresh in my mind. I couldn't take it anymore soI turned my face to look away from him. I wasn't sure how I was going to tell him or how he would react.

"You,ok?" he asked interuppting my thought process.

"Yeah...........ummmmmmmm no.. no I am not" I admitted.

"I'm sorry too much"

"What? no that was perfect" I said. "I went to the doctors a few weeks ago and they......... found something......... its something normal but, not for someone my age soo I got tested for it and I came out positive for pancreatic cancer." I continued not even being able to look him in the eyes.