Lovestrong.

I FUCKING LOVE YOU DON'T LEAVE ME

*Ellie's POV*

"EVERYDAY'S THE SAME SHE FIGHTS TO FIND HER WAY. SHE HURTS. SHE BREAKS. SHE HIDES AND TRY'S TO PRAY" Britt Nicoles when she cries blasted in my ears as I shivered near the border of manhattan. It was around 3:00 in the morning and I've gotten more than five phone calls from my mom and about the same amount from Alex but, I didn't bother to answer. How did she even know that I was gone I left while she was sleeping? I guess I should've told her but, she would have never let me leave. Oh well, I needed to clear my mind and to me walking around the city at night seemed to be the best way if sleeping and dreaming of a better place doesn't work.

I promised Alex I'd tell my father about the cancer situtation but, how. How do I tell someone I haven't spoken to in years that I have cancer. Someone that in a way knows me and if I like it or not has some type of relation with. I leaned on the metal railing and stared at the water. I should go walk around some more. Maybe I'll get some idea on how.

My stomach growled and ached in pain. I haven't eaten in days I've just been sleeping and drinking coke. For some unknown reason I found happiness in coke, satisfaction. An escape from my real feelings that not even Alex could take away or when I was too afraid to talk to him. I never understood why I'd get so closed up with him.

I walked away from the railing and began to walk towards the street to go home. I took a few more steps until, I began to feel weak and dizzy. It felt as if I was floating

Like gravity just didn't work for me anymore. Then, everything went black and I felt myself fall hitting my head on something rock solid.

*Alex POV*

"Ellie please pick up your phone you got your mother and I worried" I panicked leaving her a voicemail. I hated calling people a thousand times to reach them because I felt like I was being annoying and stupid but, in this case I needed to be annoying and stupid. I'm fucking worried. Anything could happen to her. She shouldn't be walking around at this time at night. She's way to beautiful to be walking alone at this time at night. I'd have to kill somebody if they ever tried to harm her. I know I sound like an over protected boyfriend but, I love her and can't let anything happen to her.

I took a look at her mother who seemed to be tapping her fingers on the arm rest of the sofa and looked as if she was shaking because she was. She tried to keep her composer but, one could obviously tell that she was worried sick out of her mind. For my understanding this isn't the first time shes run off but, it's never been for hours. I looked at the time 3:45 am.

I couldn't take waiting any longer. Something could have already happened to her. I looked over to Linda who still tried to keep her composer. "I'm going to go look for her waiting for her to come home isn't working out in my head. Have any idea where I can check?" I said looking at the panicked and worried mother.

"I believe you can check around the border of manhattan near the brooklyn bridge she always used to go there but, if not there than she might be around central park but check near the border first." she said fear spilling out in her voice. Why didn't her mother say something about this before. Sigh woman....... sometimes I wonder.

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I got near the border of Manhattan and walked around it. There was a mary go round and a few steps that led to the river. I continued to walk but, no sign of Ellie. The place was surprisingly empty you would think that about 5:00 in the morning people were riding there bikes, jogging, and/or walking there dogs. One could see the sunlight touch the buildings and reflect on the water as it began to rise.  I could see why Ellie would come here it was fucking beautiful.

I kept in search for Ellie still no sign. Suddenly, as I got closer to the end of the border I saw a figure lying in the street surrounded by pigeons. Without thought I ran to the figure. The closer I got the more clear the figure came to be. It was Ellie her long red hair gave it away.

I kneeled down and grabbed her; sitting her up just a little and holding her in my arms. I looked at her face; it was pale, her nose really red, and her eyes were closed completely.

"Ellie wake up" I said repeatedly but, nothing happened.

FUCK.

I grabbed her wrist and looked for her pulse. Her heart was beating but, beating slowly. I need to call for an ambulence. Ellie would hate me if I do that but, I have no choice. I reached down my pocket and got out my phone and dailed 911.

"911 whats your emergency" the lady said on the phone.

"Hi I need an ambulence, a girl is unconsious"

"Okay I need an adress sir"

Shit i dont know the fucking adress. FUCK. I searched around the air to see if I can find anything with an adress on it but, found nothing.

"Its around the mary go round near the brooklyn bridge. I dunno he exact adress."

"Okay sir I believe I know what you are talking about an ambulence will be there soon"

I hung up the phone in hope that the ambulence will find us. I looked down at Ellie and held her close to me. I needed her to be warm, to be safe. I kissed her forehead.

"Ellie please don't leave me" I whispered.

"I FUCKING LOVE YOU ELLIE. I FUCKING NEED YOU JUST PLEASE WAKE UP. PLEASE. FUCK ELLIE YOU ARE THE BETTER PART OF ME."

Sorry if this chapter was a little shitty but, I really helo tou enjoyed tell me everything you need me to improve on please.