Beautiful Pain (VIXX WonTaek)

6

"I'm glad that you're back home" Ravi said while he and Leo were eating together.
"Me too even though I can't remember everything".
"You will remember soon. The doctor promised it".
"I know but I'm a little bit sceptical".
"Don't it won't be good for you. You have to rest to regain your memory".
"Don't worry so much about me Ravi."
"You're my husband. Of course I worry about you and take care of you".
"Ravi I'm old enough to take care of myself."
"Leo you just came back from the hospital. You need to rest. I will be there to take care of you no matter what".
"But you have to go to work".
"My chef told me to stay at home for the time you need to be taken care of".
"It won't be long".
"Come on Leo. Just enjoy the time we have together. It's just you and me. No work. No stress."
"I know but I feel bad when you do so much for me".
"It's because I love you Leo. Just let me take care of you and you'll soon can do everything again. There's nothing to feel bad about."
"If you say so. But I want to go the park today."
"Of course everything you want".
After they finished eating they went out together to the park. It was a beautiful autumn day. The leaves were falling and the sun was shining. It wasn't hot but it wasn't cold either, it was perfect. After a while they decided to sit down on a bench. There weren't many people but a few parents were outside with their kids, playing.
They were there for quite a while and soon Ravi got hungry.
"Leo I'm getting something to eat. Do you want something?".
"Just a bottle of water".
"Ok I'll be back soon" Ravi said and kissed Leo before leaving. Since the accident happened he doesn't want to miss a chance to show Leo how much he loves him.

Ravi needed more time than expected and soon Leo was bored. He hoped that Ravi would be back soon but it took him really long.
Suddenly a little girl came and sat down on the bench opposite Leo.
The girl started talking with Leo and they talked about all kind of things until a young, pretty woman came.
"Hye there you are. How many times do I have to tell you that you shouldn't annoy everyone you see. I'm sorry for the behavior of my daughter."
"It's okay. She wasn't annoying. It was nice talking with her and."
"Leo I'm back and I.." he stoped talking the minute he saw Angelique and Hye.
"We have to go now" the woman said and left with the girl.
Ravi was glad that she didn't say anything.
"Who was this?" Ravi asked.
"Oh she just came here and we talked a bit."
"You haven't seen her or her mother before?"
"No".
That was exactly what he wanted to know.
Ravi started eating and they didn't talk about it anymore. Ravi just hoped, Angelique will do the right thing.
After eating it was already getting dark so they headed back home. Ravi was kinda glad that Leo didn't remember much so he was able to hide Angelique and his daughter. He also knew that Leo was suspicious of him, because he often asked Ravi why he came home so late or why he was out so much. He once heard Leo whispering in his sleep and this frightened him the most. These four words scared him the most. Please let me die.
Ravi knew it was his fault that the man he loved so dearly was feeling like this. He only wanted to be there for his child and his husband but he couldn't. He wasn't able to be there for the both of them and the person he would do everything for is Leo.
"I hope it wasn't too much for you today. You still need to rest."
"No I'm okay don't worry. I had fun today."
"I'm glad to hear that but please rest when we reach home."
They soon reached their house and Leo did what the younger has told him. He headed to their shared bedroom and immediately rested a bit.
In reality he was glad to be back home. He didn't want Ravi to worry even more about him, so he remained silent that he was exhausted.
He soon fell asleep and was caught in a dream.
The two were in Thailand, enjoying their time together. It was wonderful and warm. He was sitting on the beach while he watched every move of his husband. He was happy he finally was married and to the man he liked for so long. He often dreamed about this wedding, but he always knew it would never happen. But when Ravi proposed to him, he was closer to this dream and now it finally happened but the happy mood soon changed when they were no longer in Thailand but back in Korea. It seemed everything changed drastically and soon they were just living with each other. There were times they didn't talk or when Ravi wouldn't even show up. Leo knew he was seeing someone else and he hated it, he waited every day for Ravi to talk about it but most of the times, he fell asleep or Ravi changed the topic. Leo just waited for him to confess, that he's in love with someone else, but this never happened. Leo then reached the point he stopped caring. He didn't care for Ravi or his own stupid feelings. There wasn't one thing he cared about anymore. He was just living his daily life without feeling anything. He always rejected Ravi from then on, even if he knew he still loved him. After another night of Ravi not coming home he was on the verge of doing something stupid. He wanted to die so badly. His life had no meaning without the younger. This one day, he was driving to work he thought about how easy it would be to end it all and when the truck was running over them and he was only one step away from death he was glad. He was glad to finally end it all here. This was the most happiest day in his life beside the wedding.

Leo woke up from this dream, his head buzzing and his breath was hitching. It all felt so real and he could remember everything. That was when he regained his memory and he wished he never would have gotten it back.