Beautiful Pain (VIXX WonTaek)

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It didn't take him long to get to the hospital, the whole drive there he couldn't stop the tears from rolling down his cheeks. He hoped that it wasn't too late, that Wonshik was alright and would tell him how sorry he was.

Quickly he ran into the hospital and to Wonshik's room but was stopped by a doctor before he could enter.
„Kim Taekwoon?" the doctor asked while he only nodded.
„Thank you for coming so fast. He wanted to see you" he said and guided him into a more secluded area.
„Is he alright?" Taekwoon immediately asked, feeling tears well up in his eyes.
„We found his advance directive and he clearly stated that he doesn't want to be kept alive if something like that happens to him."
„W-what does that mean?" Taekwoon whispered, feeling all of his strength leave his body.
„In order to fulfill his will we'll shut down the machines that keep him alive."
„N-no you can't do this. He never told me about it."
„We have to do what the patient wanted. I'm really sorry and I know how hard it'll be but being in a coma isn't what he wanted. There hasn't been a sign for him to get better after his operation as well and if we will continue to keep him alive it can be that he'll never wake up, that's not what he wanted."
„C-can I call our friends? To say goodbye?" he simply asked and the doctor just nodded, giving him space to make a few phone calls.
„Taek is something wrong?" Hakyeon asked when he answered the phone.
„Wonshik will die soon and I need you and Hongbin here with me. I can't do this alone" he whispered and from the gasp and the rustling on the other line he knew that his friends will be here soon.
„We'll be there in a few seconds" Hakyeon mumbled and Taekwoon only nodded as he ended the call, standing up to go into Wonshik's room. It was a weird feeling to see him like this, he wasn't breathing by himself and the beeping of the machines increased his heartbeat, made him feel uncomfortable.
„I'm sorry. We should have protected each other but we failed and now you have to go. I don't even know if you're still here but I'll always love you no matter where you are. Maybe we weren't destined to be together in this lifetime but we'll meet in another one" Taekwoon whispered under tears and grabbed his hand, not reacting to his touch at all.
He stayed like this for a while until Hakyeon and Hongbin rushed into the room, tears already sparkling in their eyes.
„I'm so sorry Taek" the oldest croaked out but he was almost as devastated as Taekwoon was and he knew, they all knew so they just hugged each other until the doctor showed up again.
„It's a hard decision but it's what he wanted" he said and they all just nodded.
„There's nothing we could do to help him anymore."
„Can you do it now? That it's finally over?" Taekwoon pleaded, clinging onto Hakyeon in order to not collapse right now and the doctor only nodded, slowly shutting down one machine after the other. It didn't take long until the ECG showed a flatline before it was turned of as well, bathing the whole room in quietness.
Taekwoon knew that this was it, his beloved husband was dead now and there was nothing he could do anymore. They failed to protect each other and this was their punishment.
„Taek w-we'll get through this together" Hakyeon mumbled and hugged him closer, feeling like he couldn't breathe anymore.
Hongbin didn't even have the power to communicate anymore, he just sat there and watched Wonshik, one of his best friends, as he was lying there without breathing or moving.
He couldn't believe that he would ever be this stupid, to drive after drinking so much but here he was, dead because of one single mistake.
They didn't know how long they were sitting there until a few nurses rushed in to bring him into the mortuary, telling them how important it was to cool the body before the funeral and they all said their goodbyes before they just sat there without talking. Too much happend in the past hours and they were all too deep in thoughts.

I think a lot of you would love to kill me rn 🤭