Beautiful Pain (VIXX WonTaek)

12

Taekwoon felt like he was in a badly directed movie. First he had a car crush and amnesia from the accident and now he was at the place of accident seeing Wonshik's car completely crashed, seeing the ambulance drive away.
„They told us to come to the hospital and that we can wait there" Hakyeon said and followed his gaze to the wreckage.
„Don't worry too much. I'm sure he will be fine" the older said and softly put his arm around his shoulder to pull him to the car again.
„Did this really happen?" he whispered as he walked back to the older's car, hating himself for leaving Wonshik yesterday like that.
„I shouldn't have left him" he added and felt a few tears well up in his eyes.
„It's not your fault. I would have left too if I would have been in this situation" Hongbin said while cuddling up more into Hakyeon's shoulder after he was being pulled there closer only a few seconds before.
„It's nobody's fault. Things like that can happen to everyone" the oldest mumbled, tightening his grip around Hongbin unconsciously until he had to let go as they reached his car.
„Please drive careful" Taekwoon mumbled as he sat back down in the car, his eyes not leaving the wreckage of Wonshik's car.
„Of course I will. We'll probably have to wait for quite some time at the hospital" Hakyeon replied while starting the engine, driving into the direction of the hospital.
„It feels so unreal. So many bad things happened these past weeks and months" Hongbin mumbled while looking out of the window.
„I wish I could go back in time" Taekwoon mumbled and felt even worse than before. He knew it was his fault that his husband drank too much and decided to search for him. He felt horrible knowing that he was the reason of his car crush and the reason if he should die.
A few stray tears ran down his cheek while his gaze was glued onto his hands, nervously fiddling in his lap.
„Please don't blame yourself Taekwoon-ah" Hakyeon mumbled while parking the car, noticing how silent he was the whole time.
„Even if you say nobody is at fault I know that I am. I was the reason he got drunk and the reaosn why he drove while he was drunk. Of course he should have known better but I was the one who left him. If I would have been in his situation I would have probably followed him too."
„It already happened so there is no use for blaming anyone" the older replied and Taekwoon knew that he was right.
„Let's go inside" Hongbin nurmured and intertwined his hand with Hakyeon's, the accident made him release how much he appreciated and loved his boyfriend and it made him feel incredibly bad that he really wasn't showing his affection that often.
„Is everything alright Bin?" Hakyeon asked confused, not that used to his boyfriend being so clingy and openly affectionate.
„I'm sorry for being such a brat sometimes. You know that I love you right?" he asked with a hopeful glint in his eyes.
„Of course I know" the oldest replied and pressed a chaste kiss to his lips befor ethwy continued their way into the emergency room.
„Excuse me we were informed that Kim Wonshik was transferred into this hospital" Hakyeon spoke as soon as they reached the counter, the nurse sending them a sympathetic smile.
„He's still in the OR. You'll have to wait a bit until we have further informations. Are you related to him in some kind of way?"
„Family and friends" Hakyeon replied and she nodded while typing down something in the computer.
„I'll need your names so I can later call you when we have further informations".
„Of course. It's Cha Hakyeon, Lee Hongbin and Kim Taekwoon" the oldest replied and the woman just nodded.
„You can wait over there but it'll probably take some time" she said and they all bowed to her before they sat down in the waiting area.
Taekwoon was sitting alone on the small couch, curled up into the armrest while letting his thoughts wander further away whereas his friends sat opposite him, cuddle up in each other's embrace, trying to distract themselves from the depressing vibes of the ER.
The sky was filled with heavy dark clouds and soon it started heavily raining, making their mood drop even more and not even Hakyeol had the strenght left to try to lighten the mood a little bit, after all he knew exactly that the chance of their friend dying wasn't that low so he settled on getting lost in his thoughts, slowly stroking Hongbin's hair as a distraction but also to calm him down.
„I'm sorry Taekwoon-ah."
„For what" the slightly younger man replied, his face clear of any emotions but they both knew how much he was hurting inside.
„I don't know. Everything. Nothing I don't exactly know. I just want to let you know that we'll always be by your sode no matter what the doctor will tell us when he comes out of the OR."
„You're scaring me hyung" Hongbin mumbled with fresh tears in his eyes, burying his head into his shoulder.
„They'll do everything they can do in order to save him" Taekwoon replied and Hakyeon only nodded at that before they all went silent again.
It was suffocating, people crying, hoping, praying for their loved ones to survive. Nurses and doctors rushing through the ER in order to save people's life, doctors leaving the OR but none of them stopped in front of the 3.
Two hours passed like this, asking the nurses a few times if they heard something but it was always the same answer: „They are still in the OR. I'm afraid you have to wait a bit longer."
It wasn't an easy situation and at one point it seemed hopeless to wait any longer, assuming that it wasn't a good sign they all got ignored by the doctor's exiting the Operation room.
„I never felt so scared in my life hyung" Hongbin whispered after a total of 2:30 hours spent in the ER without any news.
„We are all scared Bin" Hakyeon replied and teared his gaze away from his worried boyfriend to Taekwoon.
„Did he feel the same way I do now after my accident?" Taekwoon mumbled, surprising his friends.
„He was terrified when he heard about it" Hakyeon replied and saw the questioning look in Taekwoon's eyes.
„He was scared to lose you. He prayed that you would make it."
„He didn't seem like it the last few days".
„I know but he loves you. He always did and he always will."
With a sigh Taekwoon closed his eyes, taking a deep breath to calm his nerves.
„Excuse me but are you related or friends with Kim Wonshik?" a doctor suddenly asked, making them alls sit up straight.
„We are" Taekwoon replied, worry in his eyes.
„He's currently in the intensive care unit. He suffered from severe injuries and at this point we can't say for sure if he'll recover or not. He's still not off the danger list."

New chapter for my lovely readers even if some of you probably want to murder me 😅