Beautiful Pain (VIXX WonTaek)

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The moment Taekwoon stepped into the house he immediately recognized the smell of alcohol and the mess the younger left. Pillows and broken glasses in the living room, used glasses and emptied bottles of alcohol in the kitchen.

"Why were you doing this to yourself?" he asked, question directed to Wonshik even if he knew he was alone. Alone that was what he feared after his accident and now he was standing here alone fearing for his husbands life.
He felt the tears well up in his eyes and this time he didn't even care about crying, he was all alone so who would care if he cried? And after the events of the past days he couldn't suppress the tears any longer, they just needed to be let out. As soon as the first few tears escaped his eyes, strangled sobs followed, cutting through the silence of the mansion. He was shaking, his legs going limp as the sobs shook his body. Weakly he went into their bedroom and felt like he was stabbed when he saw the bed was a mess. He saw the condom and the wrapper a few moments later and knew that his husband was unfaithful even if he still hoped that he was sober enough to not sleep with her, but turned out it was false hope. When he saw the message and a number on the nightstand he immediately decided to call her.
After a few rings she answered the telephone, sounding incredibly annoyed.
"What do you want Wonshik? I told you that it's over now that we had our fun"
"It's Taekwoon. What did you do to him" he asked, voice strangely low and stable despite the tears rolling down his cheeks, sounding quite intimidating.
"Why? Because I wanted to have fun but even after we had sex he could only talk about you. I still don't know how he could possibly chose you over me".
"If he dies it's your fault Angelique" the older growled, not caring if he sounded emotionless at all.
"W-What do you mean?" she stuttered, obviously shocked and bothered.
"He called me after you left him and he was obviously drunk. He tried to drive and got into an accident. He's at the hospital but the doctor says it could be that he won't survive."
"You're just trying to make me feel bad. I know that you're joking or else you wouldn't sound so calm" she immediately said, despair audible in her voice and Taekwoon could only scoff at this.
"You're the worst human I've ever seen. You only want to make yourself feel better but if my urge to just cut open your throat right now is stronger than anything else so you better watch what you're saying. If you don't believe then call the local hospital and even if I'm not that kind of person I blame you for the accident."
"You can't blame me for that. It was his own decision to drink and then drive, I didn't ask him to".
"You just wanted to have fun and then leave him. He drank to make the guilt go away and I do know that this is his own fault but you were the only reason we even fought" Taekwoon replied, almost to calm, scaring himself."
"It's not my fault that he even doubted your relationship. If everything would have been okay he would have rejected me".
"It wasn't because he liked you, he wanted to be a good father. He loves his daughter."
"You're crazy. Calling me this late and trying to make me feel guilty with a stupid joke"
"I'm not joking. He's currently at the hospital and he can die any second but if you don't believe me then don't" Taekwoon spoke and ended the call before he collapsed onto the ground.
"Why are you so stupid Kim Wonshik?" he yelled before his voice broke, sobs taking over his already weak body.
"You know that I love you. Why couldn't you just tell me everything? Why were you drinking so much and then decided to drive? I want to be mad at you but I can't, I just want you to survive" he cried and leaned his head against the wall, looking at his reflection in the mirror.
"I love you" he mumbled and closed his eyes, more silent tears rolling down his cheek but the sobs slowly stopped and he felt how tired he actually was, not caring if he was still sitting on the ground. He knew he would regret it in the morning but for now it felt like the most comfortable position, especially after his bed was a complete mess and he contemplated if he should just burn the covers.

Before he could fall asleep he heard a car stop. When he opened his eyes he recognized his own car and saw another car arriving at the same time. He was too tired, both physically and mentally, to get up and instead just watched as Hongbin exited his car and positioned his car keys at the entrance before he went to Hakyeon's car. He really valued his friends and was glad that he had friends like them.
He watched them drive away and closed his eyes again, trying to finally fall asleep. He needed the sleep and he hoped that he would forget everything even if it wasn't for very long but luck wasn't on his side today. The ringing of the telephone teared him away from his thoughts. He didn't recognize the number so he just waited until the ringing was over while trying to go back to sleep but instead the phone rang again a few minutes after.
Groaning he finally accepted the call but he knew that it was definitely the wrong choice.
"Excuse me, is this Kim Taekwoon speaking?"
"Yes. What is this about?"
"Ah sorry. My name is Dr Kwon. It's about Kim Wonshik. Is it possible for you to come to the hospital now?"
"Now? Did something happen?" he immediately asked and felt his stomach churn in discomfort.
"I'd rather tell you in person".
"I'll be there in a few minutes" Taekwoon replied and ended the call, quickly leaving while praying that Wonshik was still alive.

I'm really sorry, also for the next chapter but I was listening to my favorite F.T.Island songs while writing this and they weren't exactly that happy.
Anyways I hope you still like me and the story 🙈