A drop in the ocean

Thank You

Thank You

These are hard for me to say, but I just had a major perspective change along with a creative moment...

Thank you cancer for taking my grandfather. You taught me not to expect things to magically go my way.

Thank You collage for stressing my father out, getting him MAD when Ryan's grades were below his expectations. You taught me that it is okay to be fearful, as long as it doesn't become bigger than that.

Thank You stroke and malnutrition for taking away my great grandpa D. You taught me that hiding one's problems is never worth it and can kill you.

Thank You lung cancer for taking away my great grandpa Slater. You taught me that I really do need friends, I can't do life alone.

Thank You insecurities for making me shy. You allowed me to help the people who would have avoided me otherwise.

Thank You bottled up feelings. You taught me that it is okay to cry, and that I really do have good, supportive friends.

Thank You self for hurting yourself. You taught me that I need to use worlds kindly, because if my worlds hurt me, they must hurt others even more.

Thank You friends for not supporting me when I needed you most. You taught me to grow up and showed me my real friends.

Thank You small group for abandoning me. You taught me that people are not who they say they are and you taught me to tolerate the people I am with now.

Thank You world for being so cruel. You taught me that I need to appreciate the good, and to handle the bad in the best way possible.

This is all hard to say, but thank you for hurting my heart. You taught me so many lessons I couldn't have learned otherwise and made me the person I am today.

Thank you guys for not noticing me, making me wonder if there really is a guy out there for me. You taught me to be independent and find the beauty within myself.

Thank you insecurities for making me hate myself. You taught me to identify the parts of me I actually enjoy about myself, like my love for kids, and my eyes.

Thank you fear. You made me paralyzed and incapable of being myself and expressing myself. But without you, I would not be so excited when I do act out of character and notice the improvements I have made.