I'm confused.
The people-pleaser inside puts other's happiness before my own.
I've been told it's good,
I've been told it's bad.
So what is is?
Is it best the world be happy besides myself,
Or I get that guilty feeling because I sacrificed someone's happiness for my own?
I keep debating,
Long-term annoyance for me, or short-term tension for everyone?
In most situations, I would take the annoyance.
I'd prefer the world be happier than me.
But in this case,
I need to put myself first.
Why you may ask?
My desire to learn about God is more important that their desire to be buddy-buddy with me.
Their smothering stopped me from enjoying small group.
Their distracted thoughts stopped me from learning.
They stopped me.
Now that I have changed groups,
I have learned more in the past 2 weeks than I did in 2 months.
I have felt more at home with my NEW group than the girls I grew up with.
They were not like me,
I was not like them.
They wanted me to be like them, and forced it on me.
My new group accepts me for who I am.
They care and listen.
They are like a warm shower after camping for 4 months without clean water.
It feels so nice!
Why hadn't I done this before?!
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A drop in the ocean
Poesía"We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop." Mother Teresa A collection of poetry that I have written (and published separately) that is the hard truth. If you rea...
